- Sajna -

When you smile, I smile with you,
When you cry, I feel it too,
You are my soul, my heart callin' out to you,

Be my eyes when I can’t see,
Be my voice when I can’t speak,
Be my life when darkness creeps on me,



Hoo, sajna sajna sajna re,
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Sajna sajna sajna re
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re


Through the stars that shine so bright,
Cross the sky and cross the night,
Making ways to be right by your side

Hold me close don’t let me go
Hold me tight don’t you say no
Save the love we have for ever more


Ho, sajna sajna sajna re,
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Sajna sajna sajna re
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Save me, when my dream catches fire
(Spare?) me, in my only desire
Wake me, when the pain is over
Take me, now (Take me, now) ...2

When you smile, I smile with you,
When you cry, I feel it too,
You are my soul, my heart coming out to you,

Be my eyes when I can see,
Be my voice when I can speak,
Be my life when darkness creeps on me,

Through the stars that shine so bright,
Cross the sky and cross the night,
Making ways to be right by your side

Hold me close don’t let me go
Hold me tight don’t you say no
Save the love we have for ever more...

arent the lyrics of this song just soo beautiful.. A.R rahman you're are amazing!!! well.. for anyone who hv watched this movie called "couple retreat " shud kno dis song.. well i didnt.. kekeke
well tiva bein the hardcore diehard fan of rahman told me bout it.. me bein the not so hardcore but diehard fan went and downloaded and heard it.. and i.... FELL IN LOVE with it!!! kinda makes me wanna be in the arms of my loved one.. :)

here was a reali cool comment i found writen by ANONYMOUS bout the song.. :
"the lyrics are so heart touching,
i feel like im in the arms of my girlfren,
and in the 2nd stanza of "hold me..." the violin strings and
base chords are to 'heaven and back'"

pretty extreme huh.. but a reali superb way of describing it!!!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

hear the song..

<3>

Shape Of My Heart

dun ask me why im posting lyrics.. coz im just in da mood of posting lyrics.. nothing interesting has happend .. hm.. well actualy der has been sumthing.. but 1st.. "shape of my heart" by BSB!! k.. dis song is old.. but to me its still so fresh in my mind.. one of my favourites.. u kno wat.. i think im posting lyrics.. coz it relates to wat im feeling these days.. sum how rather u just bump into songs dat u reali can connect to.. and sometimes when u cant think of any words to say.. a song lyrics can..hm... :)

Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here, don't put out the glow
Hold me now, don't bother if every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become

:Chorus:
Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark shape of my heart


Now let me show you the Send in this beautiful loneliness that's tragical
So help me I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now don't bother if every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become

:Chorus:

I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart...

I'm lookin' back on the things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part
I'll keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

:Chorus:

Show you the shape of my heart...

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

Recently heard dis song on my playlist..didnt even know it was der!! haha.. very nice song with "relatable to life" lyrics :)
its so hard to post lyrics up on blogger.. its always ERROR- file is too large.. bla bla bla.. but glad i could post this up!

enjoy... ^^

I've been twisting and turning,
In a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.
(chorus)
Well I can't explain why it's not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore, Pieces don't fit here anymore.

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.

(Chorus)

Ooh don't missunderstand,
How I feel.
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried.
But still I don't know why, no I don't know why.
III dont know why...... whyyyyyyyy!"

im 20!

20 years have passed,
reminenses upon my teen-age years,
though 26 march didnt last,
but its memories will last,
thank you guys for the suprice,
and it was a blast!

a small poem to the greatest friends have in da whole wide world!!!

hehe.. lol.. i kno i didnt update my blog like for ages..! missed it as usual.. but hey i got valid reasons... net connection sucked!!
but now its fixed!! yay!!! haha

hey im 20!!!!!!!!!!! omg i seriusly cant believe it.. im 20.. im 20.. im 20.. i think i need to record it to remind me im no longer a TEENager :( :( :( :(
haha.. but still.. it doesnt mean life ends there ryt.. adults have more "fun" blek! =p kekeke
dis yers birthday was just a total surprice.. guys.. u reali got me dis time! ;)

okay heres how it went..

u wudnt believe who wished me 1st! hahaha... it was HIM.. with a prank call.. hehe.. just like he said.. he was the 1st one to wish me.. :) :) :) in a way.. glad he did.. :)
and then followed by the gang of 1220!

morning went class.. suddenly saw my uncle sebastian koren whose a lecturer in utar calling me from his car from across the street.. i went over and guess wat?? he handed me ang pao!!! weeee!!! hehe.. and he didnt kno it was my birthday.. but i told him later anyways.. he said.. "good timing ar... God's timing la.." :)

after dat..26 march went on soo "beeh" ny.. and i was just goin through the day without much expectations since everyone is busy with assignments and tests and reports..
den came home from uni.. wanted to eat anty's food from outside the housing compound.. unfortunately before i tool my bicycle and decided to eat.. the anty packed the food and her pondok and left dy..:( soo i bought a whole meal bread and tuna with mayonnaise.. and ate 4 slices if them! den later night the gang dcided to eat in a new place called GOLD LABEL sempena my birthday.. :) still i was just goin through my day without any exppectations... and den i just awaited for the day to pass.. finaly it was 12 am ..26 march is officially yesterday.. and here i thought.. my 20th birthday just passed by without a birthday cake.. nobody singing happy birthday.. everyone was doin their own work.. suddenly just felt all alone.......

slept with a heavy heart too... got up next day feeling rather upset.. but den a word of God and a prayers gave me the boost i needed for the day! :) den did my maths revision and went for me french class! boNJOUR! :):) today to close buds preet and vanezsha decided to join me to bonjour along..keke.. but then yea.. didnt kno class actuly started 1 hours earlier.. buta la saya.. but den i reali love my french lecturer .. he's the kindest lecturer i ever met! den went and sat with preet and vanz..

Later tutorial class was about to start den suddenly the lights went out.. bein the blur case dat i was ...i tot the electricity went off.. and i was cursing utar half way den suddenly " happy birthday to....." .. oh okay.. it was sumone birthday today i thought(me bein the blur case=_=).. den i turn around and got a shock out of my life when i saw ganesan holding the birthday cake and vanz, kavi, ros, sasi, yoga, pei wen, vanaysha akka coming in one by one singing happy birthday.. my heart was pounding so fast.. den i realise omg.. the happy birthday song is for me!! ahahaha! dono wether im overeacting.. but i never been surprice before.. soo i was reali reali reali happy!! :) i cant believe i didnt even suspect anything.. u guys.. i wasnt even surpriced .. i was shocked.. kekeke.. in a good way thoo... thks guys.. YOU'LL are the best!

so i reali wanna thank u guys from the bottom of my heart! love you guys to death!! :) :) :) :)

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like, to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life............

simple plan's song are my favorites!!! i remember how much their lyrics relates to a teenagers struggles.. and hardship..and hurt.. and decrimination.. den hearing simple plan's songs wud make u feel so relieved knowing that there are ppl out der just like us...

i was pretty much quite an emo-er growing up.. dats y i loved "welcome to my life".. up till form 3.. dats was where i started acknowledging a person called Jesus :) ..started reading the bible.. knowing the path of life God has prepared for me and all.. and it changed my life forever..

Recently been having soo much doubts about my course.. dunno.. mayb its just studiess getting hard..or maybe its the fact dat ur in degree and dat ur no longer spoon fed is just kicking in.=S .. despite all of dat.. just cant shake off the feeling of uncertainty .. soo many "wat if's" above my head...

one thing about kampar.. ur frens are always around u.. and when u need sumone to talk to.. u kno sumone is der to hear u out.. and yesterday.. i had a long chat with ganz.. it was easy talking to him coz his also doin a course in IT..( the rest of our gang member are in bio) .. and yes.. the conversation jut made me realise alot of thing...

- i doubt myself
- i feel intimidated by the smarty pants around me
- im a tension "patti"
- im soo scared dat im even afraid to open my notes fearing dat i wont understand anything!

and one thing ganz said dat reali opened my eyes.. "study each subject as a subject and not like ur studying for u future because u hv 2more years to go.. and one ur in ur 3rd yer u'd probably wont remember what u studied in ur first two years!!

what he said is actualy true.. and cant help but to laugh at myself for the craps i was goin through with myself.. it was self torture!!

btws ..thanks ganz!!!

i mean wats wrong with me?? lydia.. where hv ur faith gone to??? u prayed about it before u went into this field.. and u know God is guiding u in the right path.. den leave no room for doubts!! have faith.. believe..be still and kno He is God.. and He'll nvr leave us in time of troubles.. and He'll nvr leave us in darkness.. and even if we are in darkness He'll guide us back into the light.. He'll make sure His children will always be the head and not the tail.. and He definately brings the best out of us..!

Proverbs 3:5-6

Trust in the Lord with all ur heart
and lean not on ur own understanding.
in all ur ways acknowlege him
and He will make ur path straight.

.....
its here dat all my doubts and fears just melt away..
i lay my burden down and i look upon Your face
You are my refuge..
You are my sanctuary
Underneaths Your wings..
I rejoice and sing..
For You are my refuge..

- You Are my Refuge-

so keep praying.. and know dat God is there for u.. no doubts.. just pure F-A-I-T-H!

and im tellin all this to myself .. =s :p

blunt! XD

nothing much to much to blog lately... valentines day just passed by bluntly.. chinese new yers just passed by bluntly.. all i was doin is observing people enjoying themselves from far and cant help to wonder why is my life so plain, boring and pathetic.. sigh... okay..my life isnt dat plain ..boring.. and pathetic.. just dat.. i dono...its just blunt i guess..

oh yea.. ganz has a blog now!!!! yahoo!! SO glad my frens are starting to hv blogs.. eventhough nothing much to blog lately but yea.. seeing my frens starting deir own blogs now.. just bring me back to when i 1st started blogging.. getting inspired all over again.. ahahahaha!!!

so as blunt as my life may seem..there are some intresting things goin on behind the curtain.. but its behind the curtains.. so u'll nvr kno! here i go again being lame and vain..

arrgh!! hv maths test this week and i havent revised anything yet!! i actually brought home maths notes to revise atleast during the CNY holidays.. but guess wat i did..?? i was feeling soo lazy.. dat the only thing i felt like doin was sitting and rotting in one corner.. i would actualy get up early for the day and roll on my bed until it was 12 in the afternoon before i get out of the room.. now im wondering ..with all the time i had.. i could have done soo many things.. like i said.. dono why.. im soo BLUNT! :P:P:P:P:P:P

Because You Loved Me

Writin 365 little notes to the one you love.. making little little paper stars and filling it up in a box full of "i love u's" in hundreds of different languages.. getting 99 roses and the 100th rose u kno it represents u.. buying valentine muffins and arranging it in H.A.P.P.Y V.A.L.E.N.T.I.N.E.S D.A.Y .. or maybe a candle light dinner by the lake.. arent this all actions of love that u wanna be part of or waiting to be part of.. i wudnt lie.. deep in my heart i reali do wish sumone will do the same for me.. atleast in his own special way.. :)

sometimes i think too much.. haa.. oh whatever.. it will happen .. just keep prayin..
well.. i was watching "special moments with oprah" in hallmarks.. and charice a young filipino gal with a big voice was singing "because you love me" by celine dion with celine dion! just felt these versus were pretty touching..

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

:) :) :) :)