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oh boy.. certainly many surreal things are goin in my lyf.. oh well.. 1st of all .. my sister felicia is finaly getting married!!!!!!!!!! OMg.. my future brother in law (alvin)is sooo damn funny!! he's my yetta(brother).. and he called me kutty rat(wonder is its coz of my sarcasm..hehe) biasa la.. he also calls me panjimuttai(contton candy..keke.. noty ar..).. but still ..he called me a rat!! T_T nvrmind.. i'll get him nex tym.. *plans evil scheme..* my chechi(sister) and alvin are soo meant for each other.. cute couple .. haha.. he sings when he thinks of her wei.. damn romantic.. *so jelous* well.. chechi deserves it.. after wat she went thru.. hm.. i cnt imagine dat a month ago she was planning to leave d country..!! chop chop! she aint a refugee o wat la.. shes a nurse and she was planning to go saudi to work..plus she was under alot of pressure at work..personaly i think she was tryin to escape d problem rather den facing it.. i tried countless tyms advising her.. "come on.. v are children of God.. v r overcomers not runners!!" but Im D YoouGest...i doNo ANythinG crap juz keeps coming up.. hais.. but luk.. wasnt i ryt?? even if u wanna run God wudnt let u.. and Waalla!! the ryt guy shows up and work bcomes a better environment.. a.k.a problem settle!! honestly... prayer is power..

coming to me..

oh lord.. hm.. ..finaly i hv sumone who lyks me.. but its lyk soo soo complicated.. religion is an issue... so much burden.. its lyk im pursueing sum sort of forbidden love wei.. *smirks* v hv nothing much in common but rather our goals in lyf are d same.. v are not juz lookin for just a boyfren or a galfren..v r lookin for our lyf partners.. v want it to b D relationship ..i kno dat im still young and all and i hv d whole world to explore.. but how many good guys can v actuly find in da world?? after lykin all d wrong guys who end up wit super hot gal frens.. it realy brought down my confidence.. and den when finaly i laid it all in God's hands..and 'he' comes into my lyf.. its seems soo unreal but meant to be..is dis sum kind of test Lord..?? even if it is... y 'him'?? i don wanna hurt him.. im pretty sure he doesnt either.. yet.. y does it feel soo heavy to let go.. but is he d ONE?? wat does d future holds for us.. ??? wat if d parents go lyk:" if u marry dat christian gal.. u HV TO STEP OVER OUR DEAD BODIES!!" O.O.. hm.. * wondering if ppl still do dat nw..hmm..* i respect him soo much to loose him.. and i feel soo appreciated to b lyked by sumone lyk him.. but i need assurance.. i need promises.. im d gal.. any consequences i'll hv to bear.. but i kno im strong.. i can overcome anything as long i hv d Lords assurance.. i stil need d assurance and promises from "him" to make it work.. if not wats d point of expecting a relationship when der wont b any??? hmph.. for now.. v remain as frens.. v need alot.. i mean aLOt of tym.. tek d tym to kno each other personally in and out..im sori.. and afer dat if he's still willing to go for it.. and i wud gladly go for it too :) .. im prayin.. watever happens....... im strong i'll get through it..but..hm..

ONE thing for sure..none of this i expect it to happen in mY life.. my life la.. dis so so so boring life and time of lydia parveena koren.. sooo cliche and surreal..soo tamil movi-ish..whisch i hate soo much...hm.. so happy for my sister la..