sori was out for quite sumtime.. had so much things to blog.. but wth internet explorer giving a freaKIN hard time!.. i wasnt able to blog much.. so now finaly downloaded google chrome!!!!

gosh.. exams!!! m quite relaxed considering the closeness of the exam date..and im worried dat im not worried!!!.. but getting a little anxious every now and then.. god..

anyways.. wont b blogging much atm.. hopefully ders more to blog during the semester brek! ;)

chaoz for now.. lydia koren out

funniest?? cutest?? sweetest comment?? haha..

shabin shabin.. he is such a funny guy! miss him !! ><

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feel so stressed out.. had the most wasteful weekend ever!! cud hv done so many things... watever planned aso didnt work out.. 2 mor assigments still pending.. so much to do in so little time.. cannt help but to complain complain complain and whine whine whine to myself.. feel so sad for myself.. gosh.. im indulging myself in self pity!! dis is soo not me.. wishing so badly to hv a break.. mind feels like its packed with loads and loads of work.. and it has no more space to even get the maths formulas and equation into my head..feel soo screwed.. feel like quiting.. feel like rotting.. feel like sleeping and nvr ever have to get up again..

reali wish sumone cud talk to me.. hold me tight .. assuring me.. comforting me.. caressing me like a little child.. wishing to just lie in their arm and just cry and cry and cry until my eyes are dry out of tears.. to feel relieved.. to feel the burden lighten... feel lke flying up in da sky.. and soar away.. soar far away.. and nvr come back...

maybe i shud just quit uni .. get married.. b a housewife.. become a homemaker.. its an occupation too wat.. an occupied filled with love and affection...

im crappin.. but i don care.. just wanna let it out.. evrything can seem soo fucked up dat sometimes faith is tested.. sori Lord.. hate it each time it happens..

sometimes wonder if ppl even care wether i exist!! or just as little as i am.. im just a little part of their lives..

feel soo necgleted.. feel fake.. feels like a void.. feels idiotic..

im tryin to talk sense.. but im not making any..

plz pray for me..

amma.. i miss u.. ammama i miss u too.. miss ur taufu sambal and sambar.. wish i cud hv tasted it.. y werent u der when i came home?? dont u miss me as much as i miss u.. ??

im crapiin.. but im serius.. dis is wats goin through my head.
before u guys get worried.. i better stop.. i hope i get up feeling better..

ISSUES

"Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues"

love this song by the saturdays.. sumtimes i wonder if my heart has an issue.. ?? uukay.. dat was random..

oh yea.. if any has read my facebook wall post..
i finaly had a closure..to all emotional issues..
its a relieve.. its a blessing.. its an experience i wouldnt forget..
just didnt understand why it had to take so long
but i guess it was just meant to be that way..

glad your moving on.. glad u said u wanted me to move on too..
glad u said u are finally seeing me as a friend now..
with dat i could understand how much u loved me before this..
and how long it took for u to maybe say those words to me..
truth of the matter is..
i didnt wanna move on if u didnt move on..
though it hurts.. in a way.. i just didnt mind it..
sumtimes i cud get emotional.. when i would just drown myself in it..
but then i realise.. i just want u to be happy..
hoping u'd find someone who truly appreciates u..
with me just bein the shadow of ur past..
no longer need to ponder upon of..
ur a treasure..which i shall cherish
with dat im a bit overprotective of u..
dont think can stand anyone hurting u..
glad dat u were the one to love or had loved me..
now with this closure.. my heart finds relief..
a burden off my shoulder..
ur one of a kind..
u are hard to find..
keep bein the person u are..
and u'll find sumone to love u for who U are..
loving u always..
by ur friend.. :)