i want to go to a place....

I wanna to a place where I can say
That I'm all right and I'm staying there with you
I wanna know if there could be anyway
That there's no fight, and I'm safe and sound with you

And everytime I look, I thought you were there,
But it was just my imagination
I don't see it anymore cause I see thru you now

Even now you still haven't noticed this quiet sky
I am always thinking of it, but I can no longer return to there

And I will always be awake in my heart, gently taking notice
That someday I will be able to see kindness

What's stopping me? I get stuck again
Is it really OK? It's never OK for me
What's got into me? I get lost again
Is it really OK? It's never going to be

And I will search harder to realize the things in front of my eyes
Even the wind's direction will surely change tomorrow
The wind whispers gently, the one that moves is the earth
Find the way and I will be able to see kindness

And every time I look, I thought you were there,
But it was just my imagination
I don't see it anymore cause I see thru you now

I wanna go to a place where I can say
That I'm all right and I'm staying there with you

-i want to go to a place- RIE FU

aiRplanEs

currently addicted to B.o.b ft hayley williams from paramore AIRPLANES..
seriusly love the song and the rap and also the lyrics!!
wuhoo!!

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

(B.o.B)
Yeah
I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partying
The smashing and crashing
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And after all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time when you fade to the blackness
When you're staring at that phone in your lap
And hopin' but them people never call you back
But that's just how the story unfolds
You get another hand
Soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel in the sand
What would you wish for if you had one chance?
So airplanes airplanes
Sorry I'm late
I'm on my way
So don't close that gate
If I don't make that
Then I switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it
By the end of the night

(Chorus)

[B.o.B]
Yeah
Yeah
Somebody take me back to the days
Before this was a job
Before I got paid
Before it ever mattered what I had in my bank
Yeah back when i was trying to get a tip at Subway
Back when I was rapping for the hell of it
But now days we rapping to stay relevant
I'm guessing that if we can make some wishes out of airplanes
Then maybe oh maybe I'll go back to the days
Before the politics that we call the rap game
And back when ain't nobody listened to my mixtape
And back before I tried to cover up my slang
But this is for decatur
What's up Bobby Ray
So can I get a wish to end the politics
And get back to the music that started this shit
So here I stand
And then again i say
I'm hoping we can make some wishes out of airplanes

[Chorus]

[End]

"lionel richie"

* try to mek me go to rehab and im saying no..no..no*

kiki.. lol.. its the song thats goin on on my playlist ryt now.. ok ok... i kno i havent blogged for a while.. no excuses .. just didnt hv much stuff to blog.. utar kampar is not inspiring me as much as the pj campus had inspired me.. hehe..BUT .. lately im getting inspired again!!!! and its all bcoz of public speaking!! AND IT BECOZ OF MR.LIONEL MY PUBLIC SPEAKING LECTURER!!! WUHOOO!! oh gosh...im soo super excited to get such a gorgeous looking lecturer...!!(get wat i mean by my title now?? hehe) *starts day dreaming .. singing kuch kuch hota hai with mr. lionel* LYDIA!!!!! ..dun mind me.. the girl's crushing on mr. lionel.. kikiki..

uuukay.. *come back alridi lydia!!* im back.. well.. despite the hOt lecturer.. my 1st public speaking tutorial didnt go so well.. espeacialy impromptu speech!!!

mr lionel is a wonderful lecturer.. cudnt tek my eyes off him!! and he had flu.. how cute is dat.. *imagining stuff again* crap crap..lydia!!

lol..anyways.. yea.. had my 1st tutorial today..went in class with great enthusiasm.. mr lionel started by asking us why did we choose public speaking as our elective subject.. so i answered by sayin dat i wud reali want to get rid of my stage fright now dat i've not spoken in front of a crowd for quite sometime despite having experiences in debate and so on.. to be more straight forward i forgot hw is it to be speaking in front of a crowd.. not onli dat.. im sure as all of those who chose this elective took ps to gain confidence..

after getting tho kno the class.. (MR lionel said i had a beutiful name by the ways.. ahem ahem.. ) =p =p ... well.. he started with impromptu speach.. he tested our skills on impromptu speach.. he gave a few topics to choose on.. and gave us 3 mins.. okay... i sumhow rather had my points and i was the second to be called out.. i decided to talk about " man and woman communicate diffrently" .. i put my best foot forward to impress mr lionel.. i started... "THERE'S A SAYING THAT MAN ARE FROM MARS AND WOMAN ARE FROM VENUS.. BY USING THIS AS A PERSONIFICATION.. WE CAN SEE HOW DIFFERENT MAN AND WOMAN ARE THAT PEOPLE STEREOTYPE THEM AS BEINGS FROM DIFFRENT PLANETS.. " ..wow.. isnt dat a well constructed sentence??? actualy..dats not wat happened..

wat happen was.. half way through..".....MAN ARE FROM MARS AND WOMAN ARE FROM VENUS.." my mind went blank after dat!!!!! :( :( :( oh man.. i was soo overcomed by nervousness an fear eventhough it was just a small group! how embarassing is dat..??? i cudnt even pick up the pieces becoz i was soo embarassed dat all i wanted to do was to go back to my seat... haih.. operation to impress mr lionel failed miserably.. okay minus dat la.. i was reali dissapointed with myself.. but i had quite a supportive group of mates.. who encouraged me .. so with dat.. i must b prepared for the next impromptu speech training by mr lionel.. lol.. prepared..?? its impromptu la weyh! haha.. wat i meant is for mental preparation ..hehe..=D

well..sumtimes you just hv to pick up the pieces and move forward.. :)

goin for PRINCE OF PERSIA TOMORO!!! WEEE!! GOIN IPOH JUSCO WITH ZHEE YEN AND MUNFOONG!!
^^
NYTS PEEPS!!

You gave me hope
You made me whole
At the cross
You took my place
You showed me grace
At the cross where You died for me

And His glory appears
Like the light from the sun
Age to age He shines
Look to the skies
Hear the angels cry
Singing Holy is the Lord

sori was out for quite sumtime.. had so much things to blog.. but wth internet explorer giving a freaKIN hard time!.. i wasnt able to blog much.. so now finaly downloaded google chrome!!!!

gosh.. exams!!! m quite relaxed considering the closeness of the exam date..and im worried dat im not worried!!!.. but getting a little anxious every now and then.. god..

anyways.. wont b blogging much atm.. hopefully ders more to blog during the semester brek! ;)

chaoz for now.. lydia koren out

funniest?? cutest?? sweetest comment?? haha..

shabin shabin.. he is such a funny guy! miss him !! ><

????!!!!!

feel so stressed out.. had the most wasteful weekend ever!! cud hv done so many things... watever planned aso didnt work out.. 2 mor assigments still pending.. so much to do in so little time.. cannt help but to complain complain complain and whine whine whine to myself.. feel so sad for myself.. gosh.. im indulging myself in self pity!! dis is soo not me.. wishing so badly to hv a break.. mind feels like its packed with loads and loads of work.. and it has no more space to even get the maths formulas and equation into my head..feel soo screwed.. feel like quiting.. feel like rotting.. feel like sleeping and nvr ever have to get up again..

reali wish sumone cud talk to me.. hold me tight .. assuring me.. comforting me.. caressing me like a little child.. wishing to just lie in their arm and just cry and cry and cry until my eyes are dry out of tears.. to feel relieved.. to feel the burden lighten... feel lke flying up in da sky.. and soar away.. soar far away.. and nvr come back...

maybe i shud just quit uni .. get married.. b a housewife.. become a homemaker.. its an occupation too wat.. an occupied filled with love and affection...

im crappin.. but i don care.. just wanna let it out.. evrything can seem soo fucked up dat sometimes faith is tested.. sori Lord.. hate it each time it happens..

sometimes wonder if ppl even care wether i exist!! or just as little as i am.. im just a little part of their lives..

feel soo necgleted.. feel fake.. feels like a void.. feels idiotic..

im tryin to talk sense.. but im not making any..

plz pray for me..

amma.. i miss u.. ammama i miss u too.. miss ur taufu sambal and sambar.. wish i cud hv tasted it.. y werent u der when i came home?? dont u miss me as much as i miss u.. ??

im crapiin.. but im serius.. dis is wats goin through my head.
before u guys get worried.. i better stop.. i hope i get up feeling better..