cest la vie ..

.. absolutely miss blogging..

LOL.. anyways.. today kampar had a thunderstorm which was pretty scary 1st coz i hate thunder.. 2nd it felt like as if it was right above my head and 3rd it caused digi not to hv signal .. had to use fbchat to communicate with everyone just so that we can go out as a group for dinner..sighs.. but i guess v hv to thank God for the technology.. hahaha

Had another go of cs today the peeps! wuhoo! vani joined us!!! today cudnt reach my target of 100 but ended up killing 97 ppl instead before suddenly getting disconnected from the server.. nansense!

alot of things has been on my mind.. alot of  things that i shudnt be bothered of im bothered.. alot of ppl in need of alot of prayer and im here ..bein soo healthy.. sleeping like a pig.. eating like a pig.. playing cs.. yamcha-ing.. even enjoyin a peaceful scenery by the lake.. when there are people who are going throughh operations after operating.. chemo after chemo.. vomitting after vomitting.. suffering after suffering.. sometimes i just cant help wonder.. where is the fairness in thAT? Yes ppl i Am talking about cancer.. CANCER.. why does it even exist i should ask.. its main exixtence to cause pain and suffering to those who are suffering it and even those who is surrounded by it.. and sometimes it makes me feel guilty .. really guilty that i even worry about some guy who use to like me.. that i worry about failing a subject.. who this.. what that.. how much more pathetic can i be.. sigh.. SIGH!!

im just sad... how many of my church members died of cancer.. a fellow frend's mother is having cancer..my fren's aunty is having cancer.. even my own dear cousin is hving cancer and has been fighting it for 2 years and still is.. and i.. i just feel soo helpless.. i feel God is soo not fair.. and all i can do is just pray........that also im not doing properly.. sighs

honestly..now .. i no longer think its a big deal having a stomach pain.. headache.. flu.. cough ..sick.. even when it comes.. its for a while..

not sure why i wrote the things i wrote.. it just came in my mind..

anyways.. i HAVE been having this sore throat.. which is quite irritating.. hope to get better soon.. and tomorow  which is today since its 3.43am on saturday im having Pendidikan Moral class.. classes on saturdays honestly sucks... tot i'd be in the same class with sasi but i'm left stranded all myself in a different lecture hall from 8am to 3pm!!

You see people.. even after all the things i've mentioned.. i still worry about petty little things.. and u just cant help but to wonder that THERE ARE people who just .. they just .. dont get to worry about petty little things such as these.. and the only thing they worry about is to win the battle and also to answer the question WILL I LIVE ANOTHER DAY TO SEE THE SMILES OF MY LOVED ONES..?? too many "sighs" already but still.. sighs..

oh well ... for us who can pray.. we pray... =) CEST LA VIE --------> its life..