life as it is..

Read one of juan's post which mentioned im doing a good job at taking her place while she's gone.. perhaps i was.. haha.. but she's still my "guru" in blogging.. blogger queen juan! but the truth of the matter is .. i just blog when im reali tensed up.. if u realise i had a lot of posts up last month.. and i was in the middle of my finals for God's sake.. hahahaha!!

oh well.. speaking of juan's latest post.. hm.. .. i guess there is someone whose feeling the same way as i do.. and yes juan i gotto agree.."its just life.. how hard can it be?". I think.. a few posts back i roughly wrote something similar.. but it was just a buddle of words or craps and i dont even know ppl who read it actually really got it.. ^^'

its true.. its just life . how hard can it be? though we think this way.. why do we still hv the doubt.. THAT wreck of emotion that we still sink ourselves into? after putting on my thinking cap.. this thought just randomly popped in..LIFE as we say  is only hard when we start getting confused between what we feel and what we think.. confusion between imagination and reality.. confusion between facts and figures.. confusion between touching and tasting.. confusion between seeing and believing ...confusion between knowing and not knowing..confusion!

yes.. im confused.. sometimes you just cant help but to ask God :"why cant my life be as perfect as others?!!!"

well.. ofcourse nobody is perfect.. problem ceases to rise no matter how perfect someone is or how perfect someones life is.. being perfect itself is a problem.. so then why???  well.. to be honest.. when you dont get the things you want in life.. and when other have it.. you just assume that the person is perfect.. sighs..  i kno ..lame.. 

So then .. what happens to trusting God..? what happens to having faith? what happens to not having doubt? what happens to "God's will be done in my life"?  Well........ nothing .. nothing happens.. cause its you... its all you.. WE have to look at life diffrently.. rather than looking at it like some miserable piece of trash.. we ought to look at it like its a rainbow.. colorful.. beautiful.. it just puts a smile on your face... and you help to put smiles n others.. =)  its tough.. it is HARD.. sometimes we just got to let go of past emotions.. definately know that God's will is being done in your life... definately i want someone in my life..to love me for who i am.. whome i'd be happily married with kids..mayb i hAd that person.. but then God told me its not him.. and i must wait.. so i'll just wait.. and im sorry God.. if i had acted miserably..if i didnt hv faith.. if i ever doubted You.. if i had ever stop trusting You.. im sorry.. cause nothing in this WORLD ever matters if  I dont HAVE YOU in my life.. =) 


You cant change what has happened.. nor must you dwell in it.. dont let your teenage hormones/ adult hormones(if such exists) get the head of you.. take charge of you life.. accept things the way they are.. dont try hard to change then ending up making the biggest mistake in your life.. everything happens for a reason.. if what you want doesnt take place now.. it doesnt mean it wont happen.. God has heard your prayers.. so trust in Him..for He will make your path straight..just let it go.. 


YES i know i have mentioned the aboves 101 times in my other posts before.. but no harm to be reminded of again.. for myself and for some of you.. ^^

Something just prompt me to write this on fb yesterday morning(saturday) :

"why would ppl wanna kill themselves for love?? come on la..life is worth more than that.. love comes and go.. if its the right one for u it stays.. and nothing is better God's love for YOU and ME .. if u wanna die .. die for Him.."

God bless and goodnyt!