sori was out for quite sumtime.. had so much things to blog.. but wth internet explorer giving a freaKIN hard time!.. i wasnt able to blog much.. so now finaly downloaded google chrome!!!!

gosh.. exams!!! m quite relaxed considering the closeness of the exam date..and im worried dat im not worried!!!.. but getting a little anxious every now and then.. god..

anyways.. wont b blogging much atm.. hopefully ders more to blog during the semester brek! ;)

chaoz for now.. lydia koren out

funniest?? cutest?? sweetest comment?? haha..

shabin shabin.. he is such a funny guy! miss him !! ><

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feel so stressed out.. had the most wasteful weekend ever!! cud hv done so many things... watever planned aso didnt work out.. 2 mor assigments still pending.. so much to do in so little time.. cannt help but to complain complain complain and whine whine whine to myself.. feel so sad for myself.. gosh.. im indulging myself in self pity!! dis is soo not me.. wishing so badly to hv a break.. mind feels like its packed with loads and loads of work.. and it has no more space to even get the maths formulas and equation into my head..feel soo screwed.. feel like quiting.. feel like rotting.. feel like sleeping and nvr ever have to get up again..

reali wish sumone cud talk to me.. hold me tight .. assuring me.. comforting me.. caressing me like a little child.. wishing to just lie in their arm and just cry and cry and cry until my eyes are dry out of tears.. to feel relieved.. to feel the burden lighten... feel lke flying up in da sky.. and soar away.. soar far away.. and nvr come back...

maybe i shud just quit uni .. get married.. b a housewife.. become a homemaker.. its an occupation too wat.. an occupied filled with love and affection...

im crappin.. but i don care.. just wanna let it out.. evrything can seem soo fucked up dat sometimes faith is tested.. sori Lord.. hate it each time it happens..

sometimes wonder if ppl even care wether i exist!! or just as little as i am.. im just a little part of their lives..

feel soo necgleted.. feel fake.. feels like a void.. feels idiotic..

im tryin to talk sense.. but im not making any..

plz pray for me..

amma.. i miss u.. ammama i miss u too.. miss ur taufu sambal and sambar.. wish i cud hv tasted it.. y werent u der when i came home?? dont u miss me as much as i miss u.. ??

im crapiin.. but im serius.. dis is wats goin through my head.
before u guys get worried.. i better stop.. i hope i get up feeling better..

ISSUES

"Me and my heart we got issues,
Don’t know if I should hate you or miss you,
Damn, I wish that I could resist you,
Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you.
Me and my heart we got issues"

love this song by the saturdays.. sumtimes i wonder if my heart has an issue.. ?? uukay.. dat was random..

oh yea.. if any has read my facebook wall post..
i finaly had a closure..to all emotional issues..
its a relieve.. its a blessing.. its an experience i wouldnt forget..
just didnt understand why it had to take so long
but i guess it was just meant to be that way..

glad your moving on.. glad u said u wanted me to move on too..
glad u said u are finally seeing me as a friend now..
with dat i could understand how much u loved me before this..
and how long it took for u to maybe say those words to me..
truth of the matter is..
i didnt wanna move on if u didnt move on..
though it hurts.. in a way.. i just didnt mind it..
sumtimes i cud get emotional.. when i would just drown myself in it..
but then i realise.. i just want u to be happy..
hoping u'd find someone who truly appreciates u..
with me just bein the shadow of ur past..
no longer need to ponder upon of..
ur a treasure..which i shall cherish
with dat im a bit overprotective of u..
dont think can stand anyone hurting u..
glad dat u were the one to love or had loved me..
now with this closure.. my heart finds relief..
a burden off my shoulder..
ur one of a kind..
u are hard to find..
keep bein the person u are..
and u'll find sumone to love u for who U are..
loving u always..
by ur friend.. :)

- Sajna -

When you smile, I smile with you,
When you cry, I feel it too,
You are my soul, my heart callin' out to you,

Be my eyes when I can’t see,
Be my voice when I can’t speak,
Be my life when darkness creeps on me,



Hoo, sajna sajna sajna re,
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Sajna sajna sajna re
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re


Through the stars that shine so bright,
Cross the sky and cross the night,
Making ways to be right by your side

Hold me close don’t let me go
Hold me tight don’t you say no
Save the love we have for ever more


Ho, sajna sajna sajna re,
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Sajna sajna sajna re
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Save me, when my dream catches fire
(Spare?) me, in my only desire
Wake me, when the pain is over
Take me, now (Take me, now) ...2

When you smile, I smile with you,
When you cry, I feel it too,
You are my soul, my heart coming out to you,

Be my eyes when I can see,
Be my voice when I can speak,
Be my life when darkness creeps on me,

Through the stars that shine so bright,
Cross the sky and cross the night,
Making ways to be right by your side

Hold me close don’t let me go
Hold me tight don’t you say no
Save the love we have for ever more...

arent the lyrics of this song just soo beautiful.. A.R rahman you're are amazing!!! well.. for anyone who hv watched this movie called "couple retreat " shud kno dis song.. well i didnt.. kekeke
well tiva bein the hardcore diehard fan of rahman told me bout it.. me bein the not so hardcore but diehard fan went and downloaded and heard it.. and i.... FELL IN LOVE with it!!! kinda makes me wanna be in the arms of my loved one.. :)

here was a reali cool comment i found writen by ANONYMOUS bout the song.. :
"the lyrics are so heart touching,
i feel like im in the arms of my girlfren,
and in the 2nd stanza of "hold me..." the violin strings and
base chords are to 'heaven and back'"

pretty extreme huh.. but a reali superb way of describing it!!!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

hear the song..

<3>

Shape Of My Heart

dun ask me why im posting lyrics.. coz im just in da mood of posting lyrics.. nothing interesting has happend .. hm.. well actualy der has been sumthing.. but 1st.. "shape of my heart" by BSB!! k.. dis song is old.. but to me its still so fresh in my mind.. one of my favourites.. u kno wat.. i think im posting lyrics.. coz it relates to wat im feeling these days.. sum how rather u just bump into songs dat u reali can connect to.. and sometimes when u cant think of any words to say.. a song lyrics can..hm... :)

Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here, don't put out the glow
Hold me now, don't bother if every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become

:Chorus:
Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark shape of my heart


Now let me show you the Send in this beautiful loneliness that's tragical
So help me I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now don't bother if every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become

:Chorus:

I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart...

I'm lookin' back on the things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part
I'll keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

:Chorus:

Show you the shape of my heart...

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

Recently heard dis song on my playlist..didnt even know it was der!! haha.. very nice song with "relatable to life" lyrics :)
its so hard to post lyrics up on blogger.. its always ERROR- file is too large.. bla bla bla.. but glad i could post this up!

enjoy... ^^

I've been twisting and turning,
In a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall,
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart.
(chorus)
Well I can't explain why it's not enough, Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now, oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do,
It's time to surrender,
It's been to long pretending.
Theres no use in trying,
When the pieces don't fit anymore, Pieces don't fit here anymore.

You pulled me under,
If I had to give in.
Such a beautiful myth,
That's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises,
I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.

(Chorus)

Ooh don't missunderstand,
How I feel.
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried.
But still I don't know why, no I don't know why.
III dont know why...... whyyyyyyyy!"