UNSuRe...

who r u?

i feel lyk i dono u anymor..

all these yers u kno me..

but seems lyk ur such a stranger to me..

to bring me b4 a situation which i hate soo much to b in..

so uneasy..soo uncomfortable..

all this tym .. d talks i had wit u... was brought down to dis??

very dissapointing..

i reali sad.. it made me soo emotianally drained..

i was angry dat u cared more bout ur new frens over me..

deir feelings matterd mor to u..

i always knew.. u wudnt change..

u were lyk dis even those days

u were always very prone to b influence..

hw much u fail u just nvr learn..

i guess im juz a bossy fren not as "happening" lyk those u hv ryt..

look..if u hv a problem with it... juz say it.. i'll stop..

but when ur stuck in a dilemma.. i wont b der to tell u "i told u so"

remember ur not lyk them.. dont let them change u but u change them...

dont follow them.. but let them follow u...(in a good way)..

dont try to b sum1 ur not...

let not ur lips say the words of a BEST FRIEND..

plz b one will u??

it hurts to much to love u the way dat i do.. but dat to realise u dont care..

among all the true friends i hv.. i kno u are not one of them ryt nw...

even so i still love u endless.. and i pray dat u b happy..

by the end of this, u may judge me, but b4 dat try walking in my shoes..

coz when u need me d most.. i myt just not b der anymore..

Best Friends Forever..

PS: just letting out my emotions.. no offence to anybody.. -PEACE-

missed u my idiotic fren!!

haih.. hw shall i bgin... well i hv a little superiocity complex(ahem mayb alot..^^').. hate it whenver no one listens to me especially when im ryt about sumthing and this one tym dis inferiocity complex reali got me into a huge but silent rage to my close fren T.. at dat moment i felt T was the most idiotic, stupid, arrogant, self centered bastard.. i was sooo worried for his studies coz he wasnt bein responsible for it and teks everything lightly. He wasnt realising the fact of hw much hard earned money his parents hv put in for these repeat subjecs, hw important is it for his futurea and how selfish he is for not workin hard :(.. plus he has to b soo arrogant juz bcoz he cud answer sum simple example quest! To put it in a nutshell, i felt he disrespected my feelings and ME as a friend. SO since he can act dis way.. i can act even worst.. i gave him d silent treatment... it went on for days.. he was my close fren and i cudn't talk to him.. as much it was killing me.. i just felt it was d ryt decision.. i thought maybe if i stop bossing him around, he will realise his mistakes and correct them.. one weekend passed juz lyk dat.. and Monday i didn't c him(surprisingly).. not on Tuesday coz he doesnt hv class.. it got weirder when i didn't c him on Wednesday.. den i got worried.. a bad feeling juz came upon me.. y is he skipping class lyk dis??? is he out of his mind??? or .. did something happened to him??? lord jesus christ.. sure enuf something did happen.. and it shocked the jesus out of me..! he met wit an accident... :_( he's such an idiot to go back hum wit a drunk fren(u c i told u he was irresponsible).. dat drunk idiot drove bcoz he didn't want anyone to touch his stupid car.. and LOOK wat happened!? but by d grace of god.. T sustained only a knee injury.. unfortunately for d drunkie.. he was pretty serious.. wondering hw i knew all dis???? hehehe.. T called.. being d softie .. i sucked up my pride and forgave him and i just cudnt bear the thought of losing a good friend lyk him.. and he in return promise to behave and studying hard...missed u...hehehe... ----A HAPPY ENDING-----
PS: lesson learned = don't drink and drive!!!!

dread and a little joy..^^

omg.. hv to pass up physics report on thursday..its juz two days away!!! nevertheless bein the "tension patti" dat i am.. i juz randomly completed it... phew.. welll i AM repeating dis subject so i wanna get it rite dis tym around.. actuly... i get all my report ryt.. but onli when it comes to exams i'll SCREW UP!!!! hate it when it happen.. haiz.. wat to do.. lyfs lyk dat.. dats d way it is.. v can onli pull ourselves togather and go through wit it again until u reach ur GOALS.. ^^ dats the end of the dread part.. start of the joy part..well it has a little dread at the bginning.. here goes.. ON the morning of fathers i suddenly got inspired to write a poem to my dad.. but i was hesistant to gif it him..(dono y.. i think i was shy).. and i tuk quite sum tym(the whole day..) thinking wether shud i gif it to him.. so by nyt.. 1/2 hr b4 the day ends i was rushing to send d poem via email unfornately( as usual) i cudnt send it to him.. i tried again and again and again.... and again.. and i kept getting dat stupid failure notice.. den i juz gave up.. finaly after 2days.. i realised day i forgot to add the .my (xxx_xxx @yahoo.com.my )at the end.. a mistake dat cud b avoided.. bein d doink i am ..i'll nvr avoid it.. hehehehehe.. anyways i juz sent it.. i hope he can forgif me for the late entry.. most importantly i hope he lyks poem( its reali personal and special...)

R3MEMBER TH3 Tim3(HAPPY FATHERS DAY)

Remember the time when i 1st came into the world, you held me in your arm wondering what shall this creature be named and you named me Lydia..

Remember the time when i 1st opened my eyes wondering who is this big monster carrying me and you thought me to call you acha..

Remember the time when i woudn't wear my diapers and doing my big BISNESSES but you were there to pick up the big PIECES..

Remember the time when i was crying because you have to go far for work but u assured me that you will always come home..

Remember the time when i was late for pre-school you woke me up and sent me anyways so that i woudnt't miss the days class..

Remember the time when u told me i was entering chinese school i was excited not knowing the "difficulties" of learning the language.. :-/

Remember the time when i scored average results for UPSR.. You got me a gameboy anyways to show you were still proud of me whatever the result may be..

Remember the time when i wanted to quit chinese school But you thought of my future and told me not to give up..

Remember the time when we had our 1st fight( we always do but this was major).. We didnt speak for months but i know how much you regreted the things you did and so did i..

Remember the time after i entered uni facing the frustration of failures I know you were dissapointed as i was but you always called to make sure all was fine with me and that everything will be alright..

Most importantly Remember that we have went trough many Ups and Downs.. Nevertheless by the will of God, you are my father and i'm proud to have you as my ACHA..
-HAPPY FATHERS DAY-

shal's bday surprice!!

oh wow.. wat a day it was.. a perfect bday surprice successfully executed! shal was shocked(dats normal) my expectation for her to cry didnt happen though.. hm.. oh wel... it was a good planning with a good mastermind to plan it and all went according to plan from getting d cakes( chocolate brownies!!), gathering everyone, making sure everything is ryt, d candles r ryt, lighter is ready, butts facing d target(shal) and facing the target by shouting "sURPRICE!!!!" hahaha.. all it all.. it was great!! loads of pictures were taken.. hehehe.. unfortunately followed by dead batteries on fons and cameras.. :( hehe.. the best part was goin bowling! first tym playin it.. had no idea hw heavy d balls can b!! d bowling alley was realii cool tho.. from 3-5pm d lights wil go off in d alley den all will go into "glow in the dark" mode.. kindaa felt lyk a clubbin scene tho.. juz minus d dance floors and the boos replace wit bowling alleys and bowling balls ..hahaha.. had loads of fun which had to end by 4pm.. v bit our goodbyes.. hugs.. kisses..

PS: venue was in midvalley..:P

soo happy today!!

omg.. after soo long i got to meet my old frens again!!!! well.. jus two la.. hehe.. nevertheless it was probably d 1st genuine laughter i've experienced after starting my repeating semester.. :):):).. shal and gaya.. its been mor then a month since i last saw them.. not onli them, the rest to. hehe.. i had a chance to talk and laugh and joke.. hapiness .. joy... wow.. all dis emotions juz cm out .. soo glad.!!! oh yea.. cnt wait till tomoro!!!!!! v'r planning a surprice bday bash for shalini.. her bday was on d 15th of june.. and d gang from kampar r cuming over!!! gee.. dis is major.. i hope shal doesnt cry la.. hahahaha.. poor gals gonna get a shock out of her lyf.. oh well.. dats wat surprice bdays all about ryt??? cnt wait!!

the climb..

well hey .. i, lyk everyone hv my ups and downs.. and sumtyms u feel dat d downs are more den d ups .. soo many failures and heartbreaks.. sumtyms giving up seems to be d only option.. hm.. here i was thinking my failing days r over after i enter uni.. who was i kidding..? God yet again proved me wrong.. maths.. physics.. dreadful subjects.. u think u'll juz pass without putting in any effort??? howver..halfway trough i realise my mistakes.. and i worked hard.. but failure juz didnt seem to leave me alone.. it broke me and it crushed me into million pieces and i had nothing but anger towards not myself but God.. i prayed hard...where did i go wrong..?? smile and laughter juz drained out of me.. only sadness and sorrow overwhelmed me.. nw.. frens hv left me.. i hv been left bhind..and im all alone...(akon: lonely in d bacground..keke) it made me soo lyfless dat i juz lost hope in God................ One day eventually i open up d bible.. another word of God revealed unto me.. encouraging me to pick up the pieces and move on.. when i did pick up d pieces.. i realise der were many who were doin wat i was doin or goin through d same situation... dis tym i realise.. i wasnt alone.. lyk me, these ppl went trough failures. lyk me, thought dey too were alone.. d fact is we are not alone but we hv each other ryt..and i realised dat these failures are nothing compared to d successes dat all of us are goin to experience(most of us will).. dats when i dcided to let go of my anger toward God.. He's juz doin His job.. He is molding us to embrace our successes in d future.. ..There's always going to be another mountain, You're always going to want to make it move, Always going to be an uphill battle, Sometimes you're gonna to have to lose, Ain't about how fast u get there, Ain't about what's waiting on the other side..It's the climb and its THE CLIMB He wants us to tek. in a way.. failing is motivating me work hard.. :)

im such a doink...

omg.. i hv a blog an i nvr update it! guess why... ?? coz i didnt kno hw to.. im such a doink la.. i went straigth to my site rather den signing in.. hahaha... all this while i was cursing blogspot for makin it so difficult to update our blogs.. but.. nw all is good.. heehehe...malu-nya..