Tuesday, November 16, 2010

ugly betty, losses and thoughts

hm.. just finished watching the last season of ugly betty!! i must say.. it was a nice ending.. ^^ liked it alot.. and absolutely loved wilhelmina slater's character! aww.. eventhough she was like a crazy evil person but then i really really enjoyed watching the show mainly for her and also to see how ugly betty turn into the beautiful swan.. =) its alright.. we can see wilhelmina's transition to desperate housewives anyways.. but nothing can beat the WILHELMINA SLATER character.. it was the bomb of the show!! gonna miss it..!

oh well anways.. i recently saw one of my facebook friend's profile.. its a girl whom i knew during foundation.. i got to know that her mother passed away .. it was really sad .. her profile pic was with her mother.. her recent status's were about how much we should actually appreciate our moms when they are alive and all... though i never knew this girl really well.. but im sure we could feel her pain wether or not we have experienced the lost ourselves.......

This, honestly made me miss my mother alot.. i feel the urge to constantly call her to hear her voice.. because to me.. my mother really was there for everything.. i mean come on.. i tell her everything that goes on in my life.. she's always there to take care of me and my sisters well beings..to give us the support.. always worrying.. always praying...she is the footstool of the house.. more so like the head of the house.. she takes care of everything..  she is a wonderful mother whom God has truly blessed my family with..  and i wonder what will i ever do without her..  i cant even imagine it..

i remember we had this conversation.. last week when she was sending me to the ktm station.. well.. some we know was planning to settle down 2yers after loosing his wife.. well my mom asked me what do i think about it.. well obviosly i would say its none of my bussiness.. its the person's life... then i guess its his choice.. but honestly i didnt think it was nessesary to remarry since ur alridi older.. i dont know if im being a bit laid back or something.. but then.. yea..

then my mom was kindda shocked with my answer.. because she doesnt mind the man getting married at all.. and then this ticked me off.. she goes on and says: " what if i die.. im not sayin i will.. but im just sayin.. plz let your father remarry if he ever feels lonely"  and ultimately my answer was a NO! and i just told her :"NO WAY! i could not even possibly think of someone else in your place!  i dont think i could even talk to the woman! and i cant imagine my father doing something like that"  i honestly got soo emotional that my face was red.. and i just told my mom to not ever talk about this again...

even as im writing this.. i do feel like soo old school-ish.. but then.. i've started to feel like this remarry thing has become a trend for the older generation.. im not really sure of what to think of it.. it applies differently for different individual.. its diffrent when u make wrong choices and you marry the wrong person and then you go through a divorce and only then you find the love of your life.. its diffrent when your young and your partner dies.. but then there is someone who is willing to love you and changes your life once again..and its also different when you've grown old togather .. you love each other soo much.. and then one of the spouse passes away.. its only natural to feel lonely.. because the love of your life passed away... but why would you remarry another person so that the loneliness goes away??? isnt just living with the memories of your love one good enough to live on by yourself..?? wont you feel like you are betraying the memories you have had with your love one??

im actually feeling a little naive here.. because im still young.. and i honestly feel like i dont know what im talking about.. and here as i write.. im thinking about the movie The Notebook.. a very passionate movie of a couple.. the intensity of the love they both had .. that it still made the man love his dimensia-ed wife.. everyday reading the notebook to her so that she could atleast recall a little bit of the love they both shared and at the end dying at each others arms.. simply a beautiful story.. ofcourse its the movies.. but i truly believe there are such cases in real live...

But then... this is just what i thought about.. and thought of writing it down.. if u hv an opinion bout this.. feel free to comment.. ^^

God bless.. and Goodnite!

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