alot of things happened lately.. too much drama going on.. everyWHERE!! literally!! thank god for the CNY holidays.. glad to have not to see some faces for a week.. no offence if you are reading my blog when i post this and if u realise that its actuallly you.. yes you.. the one whose eating the chilli and feeling the pedas-ness of it all..
1#you
like i mentioned.. DRAMA! never thought i'd ever had to come across the word or rather use in when it came to my totally vain life.. lost of trust and respect .. not sure wether to trust the person again.. you were such a close friend.. but im sad to say.. i've completely lost you.. or perhaps you have lost me.. the lost of trust and respect is so deep.. i tried my best to see a way around it.. but i just cant find myself seeing as you as the person whom i thought i knew.. and i just cant stand your kiss ass-ing either!!
2# you
well.. there are many more.. right now.. i just wanna focus on whats more important.. i just dont care anymore.. about anything.. whether is it my old flame.. some guy who calls me his close friend eventhough we never met! =/ up till now.. i still question his loyalty to this so called friendship in which he labelled me as his close friend.. ~.~ .. my moto.. never trust a person until u have met them and got to know them in person.. so yea.. simply said.. to you.. i still DONT TRUST YOU!
3#you
you.. plz dont expect me to miss you all the time and then call you and talk to you.. do u think im dat weak?? the past had always been in the past for me.. unless u think otherwise.. just quit your ego will ya... coz i aint gonna come kissing your ass... if u think i would.. well.. think again..! i have a life too ! i realise wat my focus's are and its no longer you and nvr was and nvr will.. so dont perasan.. and yes you have changed .. ALOT..
you use to be kind and compasionate..now i realise maybe because you had feelings for me so dats why you had to bring out your goody goody side.. sighs.. if u feel any changes in me.. well.. its not me.. its because of you... you can do whatever you want with your life..
tip: drink and get wasted.. =.=
4#you
you are too close minded.. cant take it.. sighs.. been nice to you all the time.. thought of you as a sibling.. respected you because you were a simple minded person.. but perhaps too simple minded.. i can only say sorry for something that had been a habit to me but to you as an offence to a certain limit.. when someone say "its all good.. i was just playin with you" but then giving me the cold shoulder is like "wat the hell??" to me.. well not holding any grudges.. but seriously .. im gonna be just fine.. whatever it maybe.. because i just dont give a damn =)
thats it i guess for all the "you"s .. haha.. YOU must be wondering.. "who in the world is this girl??" i know i dont usually talk about anyone.. but honestly.. i dont think anyone cares either.. and i dont care too.. its my blog and i can write watever i want.. if u rasa pedas than its just too bad.. i just had enough of putting a smile on everybody's faces but none to puts one on mine.. ~~
had a great talk with a church friend the other day.. and i realised alot of things.. more of a revelation.. amidst of busy putting smile on total A-holes.. i forgot about my one footstool.. my rock.. my redeemer.. my refuge.. my one best friend who has nvr let me down.. not even once but who has always kept his promise to me .. stayed true.. guided me .. my sweet Jesus.. The world.. it has changed me.. i admit that..
im telling you guys right now.. Jesus saves.. He is your one way ticket to heaven and eternal life.. you believe in Him.. you will be strong.. you will be rich.. and no harm will come upon you.. not even the devil can come near you.. infact.. no one can..
Right now.. you may be too busy thinking about chanel dresses and louis voutton shoes or how to pick up this girl or how to satisfy this man meat of mine.. its all a waste of time .. how long does a prayer take?? spend the time doing dat.. you'll find the peace you desire deep.. way deep in your heart.. which you only realise when you need it when your depressed or watever la.. and thats onli when you think about God right.. sighs.. pathetic.. like i said.. the world .. it changes you.. but you shouldnt let it.. You must set a firm foundation..
"the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom" ..
i read that a couple of days back.. and its still stuck to my head.. and i was reminded of it again on fb on a friend's wall post..
fear the Lord..
YOU do not want to learn it the hard way..
peace out ..<3
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