love or life..its a battlefield

did i mention dat i went to the historical city last one week?? haha.. guess not.. oh well its not lyk i went to any of those historical venues anyways. Juz went der to meet up wit my cuzin sista and the family.. tHAnk u LOrd for letting my mum agree to go der in the 1st place! my mum is kinda overprotective of me ..hm..juz sumtyms .. especialy the tyms where i try to do my own stunts! hehe.. it started since i was a kid.. the 1st stunt i pulled was when i was 1 plus.. mum brought me to town and she was holding my hand while crossing the road.. and little miss stuntkid lydia parveena koren dcided to let go and run off in d middle of the road all by my self! (proud moments actuly..hehe) anyways..nothing happen la.. my aunt manage to get hold of me.. and the rest u shud kno wat happen la.. kena rotan to the max!! and ofcoz the 19 yer old me now doesnt remember these treasured memories.. not untill my mum herself to me bout it..hehehe.. den next came the motorbike incident where i banged a tree with it.. kakakakaka!!! wat'd u expect i was lerning.. so fearing dat i wud ride a bike my mum wudnt let me stay in any relatives house dat has a motorbike.. gosh..

oh well.. went to melaka itself .. 1st few days.. drama started .. drama as in not only the tamil dramas but also drama in my cuzin sister's love life.. haih.. honestly i dono wats wrong with certain guys in wanting to kill themselves in order not to loose the one dey love???so tamil movie la.. the weird part was he was sooo overprotective and obsessive bout her dat he didnt wanna even c her with another guy and the most unfair part was he cAn hang out with other gals..SEXIST!!! haiyooooo... watevr it is.. sum gals( example: my cuzin sis) will forgif them and yEs give their boyfren the 2nd (god knows number wat chance was this..) chance and settle things.. cliche.. budak budak kecil zaman ini... biasa la.. juz hope dat he wudnt hurt her feelings no more..

speakin of boyfrens..im juz glad i didnt hv obsesive or overprotective..oops.. not dat i hv one ryt.. its far better den having overobsesive ex-es chasing down the current over obsesive boyfren in order to get back the ex galfren.. seriusly its a scary world out der.. be careful people..hm.. grateful dat atleast the person who liked me wasnt lyk dat................... oh wait .. ders nothin to be obsesive bout me anyways.. wether is it beauty(big nose), figure(im a shorty), complexion(im a bit tanned.. ) nevertheless i still believe in the sayin dat "beauty lies only in the eyes of the beholder" but cnt change the fact dat im such a perasan kes sumtyms.. muhahaha..

hm.. hm.. been thinkin alot bout u kno who lately.. not dat i want to.. sumtyms i feel lyk im in denial..i feel lyk i've moved on.. and sumtyms i feel i havent..but each tym i think bout wat happened it juz irritates me.. i get overwhelmed by the feeling of frustration.."y was he such a coward??" coz dats wats keep appearing in my head.. tho i kno he is not la.... i kno i nvr talked bout it.. lyk i said i think im in denial.. i juz dono wat to say bout it.. and im still not gonna talk bout it anyways.. it was nobody's fault.. but juz me ending up makin a fool out of myself.. it ended before it even had a chance to start.. i wonder if it even stood a chance..?? i wonder how it wud have been lyk?? seriusly sayin.. u cant help but to wish : "how nice if life had a REWIND button.." or how I had wish we parted as frens atleast.. but the fact is life DOES NOT have a rewind button and v have no choice but to face it! well.. right or wrong.. i decided to shut myself completely away.. from him dat is..

sumtyms i wander wat God is tryin to do.. okay..okay.. i wnt deny the fact dat i do miss him.. and here i am tryin to avoid any contact with him.. but when i open fb der it is.. new posts bout him(unavoidable).. and its always sumthing serius...oh Lord..wat r u tryin to show me??sumtyms i dono wether Your testing me and sumtyms i wonder if the devil and God is having sum kind of talk bout me up in heaven..u kno.. sumthing lyk Job's story.. but den again I AM NOT Job!! Lord watver it is ur tryin to show me.. im takin it as a sign dat i shud pray for him.. for his health and ur healing over his body and soul.. as juan says "P.U.S.H" pray until sumthings happens.. well.. its not bout US anymore but merely him.. no harm done to pray for a persons healing.. well its all in His hands, its His plans, His time, and His will b done! :)

i guess dis is LiFe :) .. CLicHE again... haizzzz... *giggles..*

love or life.. its a battlefield.. atleast in my point of view it is.. so go get ur armor!! dont u dare surender (=

P.S : i think its one of my longest post.. i think i was blurting out watever i wanted to say for the past few days/ months =S....phew.....

life.. =)

"Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is bliss, taste it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.
Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it."

~ Mother Teresa

Randomly bumped into these beautiful love quotes.. hehe.. they are famous and popular. Just tot of sharing it. My favs are the ones in red :)

1. There is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be loved.
--George Sand

2. What I needed most was to love and to be loved, eager to be caught. Happily I wrapped those painful bonds around me; and sure enough, I would be lashed with the red-hot pokers or jealousy, by suspicions and fear, by burst of anger and quarrels.
--St. Augustine

3. "When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."
--Dr Seuss

4. Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.
--Henri Frederic Amiel

5. The best thing about me is you.
--Shannon Crown

6. Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime
.--Bette Davis

7. If you love me, let me know. If not, please gently let me go.
--Anonymous

8. You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
--Sam Keen

9. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
--Heather Cortez

10. The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.
--Helen Keller

Nevertheless for me, what I would quote is that “Love will always be a part of our lives. It is the emotion that God has given us to use for him and to other people.”

twinkle twinkle_indian style ;)

u shud watch dis.. its soo funny!!

feelin lyk a total screw up in driving :'(

My god.. i dont think i've been so lack of confidence in my lyf up till now! dis morning driving lesson was such a screw up .. i actualy went and hit the pole during my parking! how embarassing can dat be?!! christ.. and dat f**cked up instructor isnt makin me feel any better( why wud he.. i juz wrecked his car..) but.. im stil lerning.. its not fair dat im the onli one whose not getting it right! its sooo nonsensified dat i cant tek it!

i dah la pantang giler ppl scolding me.. but this bloody instructor said i was lembap.. god..lembap.. me?? even my mom nvr called me lembap.. everythin wasnt ryt today.. it was his fault to begin with! which idiot instructor wud message a person 6.30 am in da morning to tell u dat ur having a lesson at 8am?!! let alone called me at 7.3o while i was still sleeping to remind me dat???!!

u wudnt blive it.. i almost cried today.. i just wanted to kill sumbody!!! even now.. as im writing dis!! im soo bloody irritated and angry! hw did others get their licence so easily?? did dey hv to put thru with such pain in the ass as well? oh come on.. i don think it was dat bad for others... probably dey had sweet and patient instructor.. and yea.. wat Is THE DEAL with the one i have anyways???? okay.. i remember him sayin y was he soo strict.. he said.. teenagers these day lyk to pandai pandai.. and they nvr listen to instructions.. dey lyk to pull things off themselves... and dat he wasnt soo strict before but now he is and bla bla bla.. but do i look lyk dat kind of person to yOU!! im an adult( i myself hv doubt in dis one).. but still.. no one called me a lembap before! i kno im slow abit.. but y?? bcoz of u not giving any clear instructions damn it!

as i was driving.. he also called me a robooooOOt :( :( :(.. sayin dat i donno kno hw to do things myself and if i dont get any instruction i cnt do anything.. MY HEART IS SHATERED!!!!! den why d hell u keep givin instructions den? u cud hv juz told me to do it myself.. when u keep giving instructions den obviously i'll hv to follow.. damn ASS!

i kno im ditching alot.. and Lord do forgive me for this.. im angry and i hv to let it out.. im lacking soo much in confidence in driving dat im reali starting to think of quiting.. i wasnt reali prepared initially.. nevertheless i was so excited and eager to master driving but ryt now.. its juz the opposite.. i feel lyk im bein bullied.. emotionaly and verbally abused.. can i juz quIIiit???

sumtyms i wonder why such ppl or such situation get to me soo easily.. honestly i cant b bothered at the moment.. bcoz dat bloody instructor is a total jerk! Lord Jesus.. take control!

PS: public transports are so much better.. and if and i will get my license.. im gonna punch the jerk 1st!

'Tis so sweet

Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus
Just to take Him at His word
Just to rest upon His promise,
Just to know "Thus saith the Lord"


Chorus:
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him
How I've proved Himo'er and o'er
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus
O for grace to trust Him more


O how sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just to trust His cleansing blood
Just in simple faith to plunge me
"Neath the healing, cleansing flood


Chorus:
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I've proved Himo'er and o'er!
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
O for grace to trust Him more!


Yes, 'tis sweet to trust in Jesus,
Just from sin and self to cease;
Just from Jesus simply taking
Life and rest, and joy and peace.


Chorus:
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him
How I've proved Himo'er and o'er
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus
O for grace to trust Him more


I'm so glad I learned to trust Him
Precious Jesus, saviour, friend
And I know that He is with me
Will be with me to the end.

restore dis child o Lord

I've been reali spirituallly down lately.. i reali dont kno y!! its lyk im not inspired to pray at all.. and it was a feelin lyk "im not prayin and i don care" kinda thing.. its soo weird..usually its nvr lyk dis.. especialy with having soo much of things to pray about!!! its meking me hv mood swings alot and i end up giving a hard tym to everyone around me.. i kno i have to commit it to the Lord and its got to hv a full stop to it.

anyways.. im juz requesting a prayer for those who actualy reads this.. plz pray for me.. dat i'll be restored with the craze for Jesus again.. pray for my studies as i'll b joinin the kampar campus nex january for my degree course and also for my driving lessons , for it to go on smoothly dat i'll b calm and less nervous about driving.. hm.. wat else.. dats all for now i guess. well as my pastor once said.. the more ppl prayin the more effectively a prayer wil tek place and i kno i have to put in dat effort as well.. Oh my sweet Jesus.. take over..