I will lay me down
At Your feet in worship
And listen to the sweetest sound of all
Oh God You are my God
How my heart it longs for You
I'm thirsty for Your presence in my world
I cry out night and day for more To hold the majesty of You
My God You stand alone
And I worship at Your throne
I will look to see Your power and glory
Jesus Lord of all
♥ And I remember that fight 4:30 PM, Cause everything was slippin' right out of our hands..I cried and you put your arms around me ♥
♥ Braced myself for the goodbye, Cause that's all I've ever known And you took me by surprise,You said "I'll always be here for you" ♥
♥ You're the thing that's right ♥
♥ When we're hungry...love will keep us alive ♥
♥ you're amazing, just the way you are ♥
♥ the memories remain ♥
♥ we'll be a dream ♥
♥ Your love is my drug ♥
♥ I miss you like crazy ♥
♥ I want to spend the rest of my life, With you by my side..Forever and ever..Every little thing that you do..Baby, I'm amazed by you ♥
♥ You're the only one that leaves me completely breathless ♥
♥ You're in my heart, the only light that shines there in the dark ♥
♥ You get me smiling even when it hurts ♥
♥ Hold me close, don't ever let me go ♥
♥ You make me smile like the sun,Fall out of bed,Sing like a bird,Dizzy in my head ,Spin like a record,Crazy on a Sunday night..You make me dance like a fool,Forget how to breathe,Shine like gold,Buzz like a bee,Just the thought of you can drive me wild,Ohh you make me smile ♥
♥ You put the beautiful in life ♥
♥ Today was a fairytale ♥
♥ Everyday I love you ♥
Got this from one blog that i recently started following.. a blog from this girl named christina abigail. She did it herself i think^^ i seriusly love it. !! its the combination of love songs.. emo love song as so the girl says..
Ganz's 2oth was a blast ofcoz!! the boy was born on 9 september which is today.. v celebrated his birthday 12am sharp last midnyt! it wa awesome with the eggs beatings.. waterballoons bursting.. and flours flying!! haha.. eventuly the whole plan kinda backfired at us.. ganesan ran off and bought 15 eggs brought his house an throwed back at us!! pheeeww.. hahahahaha!! had fun still!! =D!
I was suppose to blog this last tuesday.. but completely forgot about it. So just assume today is last tuesday and just hear me out alright?? i mean see me write out alright?? =p
Well, as you all know .. Im in Kampar now right.. main transport is our bicycle in which most of us would consider to take care with our lives!! no bicycle.. no life! uuukay... maybe not to that extent.. hehe.. anyways its assential to have a bicycle here la..
Well anyways.. Kampar has recently increased in its bicycle stealing bisness.. yes u herd me.. bicycle STEALING.. people actuly steal your bicycle wey.. no kidding..vani lost hers in campus a few weeks back ..poor thing.. =/ and here was I .. not locking my beautiful black ROCKY bicycle.. but seriusly God taught me a lesson..
This was on Monday:
It was study break and I rarely went out.. so yea.. decided to go dinner with the gang..
as usual no locking the bicycle.. but my ride is usually waiting for me to take it go jalan-jalan.. but shockingly it wasnt there this time!! I was scared.. i didnt know what to do.. my mum always told me.. "lock your cycle ..lock your" but no.. i wouldnt listen.. then vani told me.. "lock your cycle..lock your cycle".. but no... i still didnt.. the thing is .. I use to have an old cycle.. which i dont usually lock.. so kinda got use to it.. and i didnt think of locking my new ride either thinking no one would take... and boy was i soo wrong..
Anyways.. i WAS scared... what was I gonna tell my mom???? Im the one who begged her for a new cycle since the old one was giving me alot of problems.. and I had to get an expensive one too right..? aih...... i was angry.. and i was just soo dissapointed with myself.. i knew i had to tell my mum eventually.. but then as I was doing my bicycle hunting with roshani.. i was just praying in my heart.. and i was reminded of this video.. again its about having faith..
when my cycle went missing.. the 1st person i thought of telling was vani.. hehe.. and replied my message by sayin:" which crappy ass person would wanna steal hawt black rides?!" (vani's bike was black too) . Oh well.. her msg literally made me LMAO!
then when I came back to my room.. decided to calm myself down and pray.. pray with faith.. trusting God..
i said: " God.. my cycle is missing.. i know i have to tell my mom.. but before i do.. i pray Oh Lord for whoever has taken my bicycle to return to me.. perhaps they have taken mistakenly.. show them to return it.. perhaps they have stolen it.. place guilt and repentence in them that they would return it to me.. and i pray that I'll get it back by the end of the week. I surrender all to You. God.. please take over the whole situation. In Jesus name, Amen"
Tuesday
Here I was.. got up .. studied a little.. then got a call from my gang to have lunch.. something just prompt me to peek outside my house.. and so I did.. and guess what? My bicycle!!! it was there!!!! outside! in the porch!! I was shocked and speechless.. all that was going in my mind was.. "am i dreaming?? is this real???" . I looked at my black ride just like when I laid my eyes on her for the first time..touched her and caressed her ... almost had tears in my eyes.. my heart was just giving thanks to God..
So did someone steal? took it? or borowed it?? i dont know.. but God bless the soul who was willing to return it! =) =) =)!!!!
So yea.. here it is.. its a simple.. maybe funny.. cause i made a big deal out of my bicycle... but yet its still a testimony.. about faith .. just to remind or perhaps encourage you guys out there.. to pray with faith and trust. =)
i was suppose to blog this yesterday... but ended up blogging bout sumthing else.. anyways.. yesterday i was worship leading again! i seriusly do enjoy worship leading .. feel so happy to serve God every week!!
i chose these songs:
1. the stand(intro)
2. beautiful one
3. oceans will part
4. light of the world
5. awesome God (ending)
anyways.. had trouble worship leading the past few times.. i loved doing it.. but dont kno something wasnt right.. yes.. me.. i wasnt prayin and therefore i wasnt able to feel God. i told myself.. if i sincerely want to serve Him.. i have to change.. i need to.. yesterday morning had a good prayer time with God.. just sat there and decided to get it settled with Him.. just couldnt take it anymore.. (if u remember my previous post). i kno i've been reali shaky in my prayer life.. i got to change if i want to let God in my life.. stop dwelling in the past.. live for the present.. let God's will be done in my future..
after having that time with God yesterday.. worship went soo well.. God spirit was with us all.. the musicians.. the members.. it was great!! and also to hv Paul, this nigerian(his guitar skills were awesome!!)to help us out with the guitar. It was so great and overwhelming that some were filled with the spirit! All glory back to God.. Amen!
but definately.. we're all starters in serving God. I may or may not have mentioned.. the church im attending is a campus church.. we are all youths who are soo zealous for God with a tremendous passion for Him.. and we have a great pastor to lead us and encourage us and to support us .. Pastor Nicky Ling.. this is one of the best things that has happen to me being in Kampar. =)
hehe!! wats up?? yo yo yo... mc lydia in da house!!! *50 cent in da club music in da background!* holaa..!! ow.. im just getting in tha groove.. with a little style and little beat.. ka ching*
uukay.. somebody stop me before i embarass myself..! and guess wat i dont care..!! hahahaha!! lol.. im reali contented.. guess wat?? i did well in my impromtu!! wuhoo!!! oh god.. who wud thought this introvert girl when it come impromtu actuly said something without going blank??!! isnt it awesome??!!
here how it went.. i was nervous ofcourse.. the last day of the semester.. my last class with mr lionel(gonna miss him!! ><)
then there i was.. in the class.. feeling nervous as ever... mr richie was late by the way.. i always wonder he's always late.. and he'll rush into the class with his messed up hair and untucked shirt.. ( pheww...! ) =p !!!!
okay enough enough!! ahem.. back to wat i was saying.. i was the 1st one to pick a topic.. guess wat did i get?? " What are the risks n life that are worth taking and what are not? " . To tell u the truth .. i had no clue on what to talk..!! risk?? wat crappy risks that are worth taking and what are nt??? =/ =/ =/! mr lionel did some kindness of hinting me by defining wat are risks and its something like bungy jumping and stuff.. but seriusly i just couldnt get any idea out.. then mr richie did another act of kindness (oh God bless his soul by all means..) ask me if I'd wanna have another topic.. and yes!! definately!!
i didnt kno why.. while waiting for others to talk their impromtu.. i was suddenly very calm.. nervous was der.. but i was more calm.. at the same i had ideas rushing into my head for the risks topic.. and i was wondering if could talk the same topic again.. but then i took my 2nd topic... and it was about "fears" ! and here i thought..great.. fears..wat to talk about then? actuly i just faked the "i donno wat to say" expression towards mr lionel.. so he asked me
mr lionel: " lydia, do u wanna do the risks topic again??" =)
me: can i??????? =D
mr lionel: "definately! ........... NO!"
me : =_="
ow.. mr lionel and the smirk on his face... grrr...
oh well.. fears.. it was pretty easy actuly.. out of soo many fears in life.. cant i just take a few???? hehe... decided to talk to about my really good frend The Cockroach and how much im afraid of not being good enough.. just to distinguish between mental fear annd physical fear... impactly started by relating the fears to the Fear Factor show and concluded ryt on the clock ! ;)
I think its the most confident i've felt in giving a speech.. and remember me saying dat im giving a persuasive speech on Blogging?? well.. guess wat?? i aced it as well!!
HINT: persuasive speech is best spoken about something you love or you're passionate about!
coming to the best part..
mr lionel was giving an overview on how much everybody has improved in their speeches and how far along all of us have come. Then he talked about me.. on how i always speak very fast and still do.. and before the crowd could catch i was saying.. im alridi through to the next point!! ( i cant help it!! its inborn! i feel like i sound more professional that way too.. =_=" i kno... lame..) and then he said:
"Lydia did well in her impromtu... today we were able to see Lydia as Lydia rather than Lydia the word processor.."
i was like.. what?? WORD PROCESSOR?!! that was like the funniest description given about my speaking "skills" !! what a way to metaphorise it mr lionel.. haha... !!
finaly... before the last class ended.. we all snapped pictures togather!
aaaaaaaaaahHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! dont ask me why.. just wanna SCREAMMMM!!!!! but not its not helping anyways.. i cant reali express it... im just writing it! one thing i've always been bad at..EXPRESSING.. is my heart literally made of stone??? sometimes i wish i was like one of those who are easily emotional.. and they couuld cry and cry and cry.. crying is good for the eyes after all.. no wonder im wearing specs.. and seriusly it cud save me all the miserableness and emo-ness.. is it always like this when finals is around the corner.. its reali freakin me out.. seriusly!! hair dropping like mad.. i reali hope not to get bald when i leave kampar in 3 years time.. no one wud wana marry me then.. wuah wuah wuah.. !!
God.. IM SORRY.. i know its been quite sometime since i reali knelt down and spent time with You Lord.. and im positive that the reasons for my miserableness is this as well.. not being able to feel You there.. filling myself with the frustration of this heartless world is too unbearable.. i just cant take it !! feeling soo torned ..soo ripped apart.. just want someone with me.. to hold me real tight.. feel so alone.. i want You Jesus...Your embrace.. Your love.. Your joy.. Your peace.. are you hearing me LORD??!!! are YOU?!
help me Lord.. help me.. i want to serve You with a contrite heart.. without fear.. without doubt.. just to serve You in the way You want me to.. use me.. anoint me.. to share Your love to others without feeling like a hypocrite... but with firmness and truth!
God.. sorry for being such a brat.. i feel so like the prodigal son-ish.. just wanna get my heart straight with You.. and i know that i'll be okay.. <3
