.. absolutely miss blogging..
LOL.. anyways.. today kampar had a thunderstorm which was pretty scary 1st coz i hate thunder.. 2nd it felt like as if it was right above my head and 3rd it caused digi not to hv signal .. had to use fbchat to communicate with everyone just so that we can go out as a group for dinner..sighs.. but i guess v hv to thank God for the technology.. hahaha
Had another go of cs today the peeps! wuhoo! vani joined us!!! today cudnt reach my target of 100 but ended up killing 97 ppl instead before suddenly getting disconnected from the server.. nansense!
alot of things has been on my mind.. alot of things that i shudnt be bothered of im bothered.. alot of ppl in need of alot of prayer and im here ..bein soo healthy.. sleeping like a pig.. eating like a pig.. playing cs.. yamcha-ing.. even enjoyin a peaceful scenery by the lake.. when there are people who are going throughh operations after operating.. chemo after chemo.. vomitting after vomitting.. suffering after suffering.. sometimes i just cant help wonder.. where is the fairness in thAT? Yes ppl i Am talking about cancer.. CANCER.. why does it even exist i should ask.. its main exixtence to cause pain and suffering to those who are suffering it and even those who is surrounded by it.. and sometimes it makes me feel guilty .. really guilty that i even worry about some guy who use to like me.. that i worry about failing a subject.. who this.. what that.. how much more pathetic can i be.. sigh.. SIGH!!
im just sad... how many of my church members died of cancer.. a fellow frend's mother is having cancer..my fren's aunty is having cancer.. even my own dear cousin is hving cancer and has been fighting it for 2 years and still is.. and i.. i just feel soo helpless.. i feel God is soo not fair.. and all i can do is just pray........that also im not doing properly.. sighs
honestly..now .. i no longer think its a big deal having a stomach pain.. headache.. flu.. cough ..sick.. even when it comes.. its for a while..
not sure why i wrote the things i wrote.. it just came in my mind..
anyways.. i HAVE been having this sore throat.. which is quite irritating.. hope to get better soon.. and tomorow which is today since its 3.43am on saturday im having Pendidikan Moral class.. classes on saturdays honestly sucks... tot i'd be in the same class with sasi but i'm left stranded all myself in a different lecture hall from 8am to 3pm!!
You see people.. even after all the things i've mentioned.. i still worry about petty little things.. and u just cant help but to wonder that THERE ARE people who just .. they just .. dont get to worry about petty little things such as these.. and the only thing they worry about is to win the battle and also to answer the question WILL I LIVE ANOTHER DAY TO SEE THE SMILES OF MY LOVED ONES..?? too many "sighs" already but still.. sighs..
oh well ... for us who can pray.. we pray... =) CEST LA VIE --------> its life..
Friday, October 29, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Amazing Love
Amazing Love
I’m forgiven because You were forsaken,
I’m accepted, You were condemned.
I am alive and well, Your spirit is within me,
Because You died and rose again.
Amazing love,
How can it be
That You, my King, should die for me?
Amazing love,
I know it’s true.
It’s my joy to honor You,
In all I do, I honor You.
I’m forgiven because You were forsaken,
I’m accepted, You were condemned.
I am alive and well, Your spirit is within me,
Because You died and rose again.
=D!!
"i dont wanna go somewhere.. if i know that Your not there..coz i know me without You is a lie.."
im referring to God k.. not to some imagination lover of mine.. ! anyways.. its a song from Avalon.. beautiful lyrics in which i believe i've posted before.. ^^
anyways.. i believe i havent blogged for a while now.. hehe.. was high on sem break! haha... no la..actually balik kampung alridi.. so no mood to blog.. its different when ur home.. When i blog.. i need to lie down on the bed with my laptop on my lap..and just blog..therefore im alridi used to the position when im in kampar.. when i go home= blogging mood shuts off + no privacy!
anyways..its been a week since im back to kampar.. took some time to settle in.. with 3/4 of the gang off for Intership! but its still tonnes of fun with the guys and sasi, christina, sudtha.. Counter Strike and pool !! wohooo!! im a cs pro now.. my personal record from 29 to 54 then i finally i killed 104 ppl!! sudah pro la.. biasa la... *perasan-ing*
anyways.. got a few testimonies.. will update one by one later on..
chaoz for now ppl!
im referring to God k.. not to some imagination lover of mine.. ! anyways.. its a song from Avalon.. beautiful lyrics in which i believe i've posted before.. ^^
anyways.. i believe i havent blogged for a while now.. hehe.. was high on sem break! haha... no la..actually balik kampung alridi.. so no mood to blog.. its different when ur home.. When i blog.. i need to lie down on the bed with my laptop on my lap..and just blog..therefore im alridi used to the position when im in kampar.. when i go home= blogging mood shuts off + no privacy!
anyways..its been a week since im back to kampar.. took some time to settle in.. with 3/4 of the gang off for Intership! but its still tonnes of fun with the guys and sasi, christina, sudtha.. Counter Strike and pool !! wohooo!! im a cs pro now.. my personal record from 29 to 54 then i finally i killed 104 ppl!! sudah pro la.. biasa la... *perasan-ing*
anyways.. got a few testimonies.. will update one by one later on..
chaoz for now ppl!
Saturday, October 2, 2010
life as it is..
Read one of juan's post which mentioned im doing a good job at taking her place while she's gone.. perhaps i was.. haha.. but she's still my "guru" in blogging.. blogger queen juan! but the truth of the matter is .. i just blog when im reali tensed up.. if u realise i had a lot of posts up last month.. and i was in the middle of my finals for God's sake.. hahahaha!!
oh well.. speaking of juan's latest post.. hm.. .. i guess there is someone whose feeling the same way as i do.. and yes juan i gotto agree.."its just life.. how hard can it be?". I think.. a few posts back i roughly wrote something similar.. but it was just a buddle of words or craps and i dont even know ppl who read it actually really got it.. ^^'
its true.. its just life . how hard can it be? though we think this way.. why do we still hv the doubt.. THAT wreck of emotion that we still sink ourselves into? after putting on my thinking cap.. this thought just randomly popped in..LIFE as we say is only hard when we start getting confused between what we feel and what we think.. confusion between imagination and reality.. confusion between facts and figures.. confusion between touching and tasting.. confusion between seeing and believing ...confusion between knowing and not knowing..confusion!
yes.. im confused.. sometimes you just cant help but to ask God :"why cant my life be as perfect as others?!!!"
well.. ofcourse nobody is perfect.. problem ceases to rise no matter how perfect someone is or how perfect someones life is.. being perfect itself is a problem.. so then why??? well.. to be honest.. when you dont get the things you want in life.. and when other have it.. you just assume that the person is perfect.. sighs.. i kno ..lame..
So then .. what happens to trusting God..? what happens to having faith? what happens to not having doubt? what happens to "God's will be done in my life"? Well........ nothing .. nothing happens.. cause its you... its all you.. WE have to look at life diffrently.. rather than looking at it like some miserable piece of trash.. we ought to look at it like its a rainbow.. colorful.. beautiful.. it just puts a smile on your face... and you help to put smiles n others.. =) its tough.. it is HARD.. sometimes we just got to let go of past emotions.. definately know that God's will is being done in your life... definately i want someone in my life..to love me for who i am.. whome i'd be happily married with kids..mayb i hAd that person.. but then God told me its not him.. and i must wait.. so i'll just wait.. and im sorry God.. if i had acted miserably..if i didnt hv faith.. if i ever doubted You.. if i had ever stop trusting You.. im sorry.. cause nothing in this WORLD ever matters if I dont HAVE YOU in my life.. =)
You cant change what has happened.. nor must you dwell in it.. dont let your teenage hormones/ adult hormones(if such exists) get the head of you.. take charge of you life.. accept things the way they are.. dont try hard to change then ending up making the biggest mistake in your life.. everything happens for a reason.. if what you want doesnt take place now.. it doesnt mean it wont happen.. God has heard your prayers.. so trust in Him..for He will make your path straight..just let it go..
YES i know i have mentioned the aboves 101 times in my other posts before.. but no harm to be reminded of again.. for myself and for some of you.. ^^
You cant change what has happened.. nor must you dwell in it.. dont let your teenage hormones/ adult hormones(if such exists) get the head of you.. take charge of you life.. accept things the way they are.. dont try hard to change then ending up making the biggest mistake in your life.. everything happens for a reason.. if what you want doesnt take place now.. it doesnt mean it wont happen.. God has heard your prayers.. so trust in Him..for He will make your path straight..just let it go..
YES i know i have mentioned the aboves 101 times in my other posts before.. but no harm to be reminded of again.. for myself and for some of you.. ^^
Something just prompt me to write this on fb yesterday morning(saturday) :
"why would ppl wanna kill themselves for love?? come on la..life is worth more than that.. love comes and go.. if its the right one for u it stays.. and nothing is better God's love for YOU and ME .. if u wanna die .. die for Him.."
God bless and goodnyt!
Monday, September 27, 2010
Negativity -ve
Well.. been going through some other blogs from my blogger buddies blogs since most of them never seem to be updating their blogs.. no offence but i know most of you'll are busy =) anyhow ..so i came across this post from a dude name seenu.. i found this blog from juan's friends list..the dude has yet to update his blog from 2009.. haha.. and so i found this post bout men and women really really intresting.. plus i've been sensing some negative energy in Kampar..women pay attention! i thought of sharing a link to the post but i couldnt so thought of just sharing it in my blog instead =)
i love the part highlight in bolded in blue
TUESDAY, MAY 12, 2009
4.You breathe my girls carbon dioxide,YOU DIE ! (seenu likes this)
But the xx species are much advanced because their approach in revenge are more tech savvy whereby internet applications such as facebook shout out,blogger are utilized.Their targets would be;
-sluts who steal their best friends boyfriends
-who steals their own boyfriend
-bitches who spread rumor about them
An argument is said to be cement between bricks.It strengthens the bond.But it should be in a healthy way where both individual tolerate each others ego and give in for the better.Learn the word sorry and imply it whenever you need to.Trust me,your social life will be a colorful one.
There is 2 things in life that are hard to find.A tasty Milo ice and A true friend.The second one inspires us.Shows us the path that should be taken.Encourages us during the darkest of time.A person who leads us to a better life unconsciously with expecting a single gratitude in return.
If you have one,appreciate them while your still breathing.Don't shed any croc tear when they aren't breathing.
Sembahyanglah sebelum anda disembahyangkan.
Nandri,vanakam.
i love the part highlight in bolded in blue
TUESDAY, MAY 12, 2009
She's my Bitch,He's my Punani:: seenu
" Friends are like bras.Close to your heart and there for support.”
These are the peoples you...
-share nasi lemak and teh ais
-watch football matches
-complain that your boyfriend is a total jackass
-circulate porn
-get high with and curse your father for not financing your alcohol expense
The xx chromosomes(females) tend to bond better with their female acquaintance or better know as,Biatches,Babe,SugermuFFin,etc etc.Females tend to love their own species rather then the opposite ones because they can communicate well emotionally.For an example;
Anjalai just got a major shock.She reaches Manjakani via the electronic communicator device a.k.a handphone
Anjalai :BABE!arggggghhhhh! CRISIS !!CRISIS !!
Manjakani cuts in
Manjakani :Hunny !CHILL!CHILL...chiiilllll
Anjalai :*takes a deep breath*phew..
Manjakani :Whats wrong ??
Anjalai :Your never gonna believe what just happen !
Manjakani :What what ??
Anjalai : Ah chai called me for a movie !
Manjakani : Huh ? Ah chai who ?
Anjalai :*takes a deep breath of disbelieve* OMG sayang..Ah chai Ramaraju,the cutest,HAWTEST,most adorable guy in the mamak shop that day !!
Manjakani :Get out !Serious shit ?? OMG!OMG!OMG
*both having moment of leisure by shouting simultaneously*
Manjakani :First things first.What are you wearing women ??
Anjalai :I cant decided ! That's the crisis all about !
Manjakani :I'll be there in 10 minutes.
Anjalai :Awwww...Thanks babe !Love yah !
Where else the xy chromosomes(male) are much sophisticated species where a few words churns out a million meaning.For example;
GeorgePandi's girlfriend cheated him.JerrySamy consoled him.
GeorgePandi : She's a bitch !
JerrySamy : Told you right..
GeorgePandi : Macha,you know how much i love her dei ?
JerrySamy : More than porn ?
GeorgePandi :*tearing* yesss....*SOBBING LOUD*
JerrySamy :It's okay macha.Let's get drunk.
Notice the length of the conversation?Yes.That's it.No matter what our problem is,getting drunk is the ONLY solution.
Friends=Sharing stationery+cheating in exam+mocking on a lecturers+Arguments
Emphasizing on arguments,the two sexes have their standard modus operandi of accomplishing that portion.
The xy species are rare to be found in controversy among each other.But if they are found,the following long list are the cause;
1.Girls
2.Female
3.chick
4.babe
5.perempuan
6.leng lui
7.sareke
We men always fight for noble cause;
1.You talk with my girl,YOU DIE !
2You look at my girl,YOU DIE !
3.You glance at my girl,YOU DIE !
These are the peoples you...
-share nasi lemak and teh ais
-watch football matches
-complain that your boyfriend is a total jackass
-circulate porn
-get high with and curse your father for not financing your alcohol expense
The xx chromosomes(females) tend to bond better with their female acquaintance or better know as,Biatches,Babe,SugermuFFin,etc etc.Females tend to love their own species rather then the opposite ones because they can communicate well emotionally.For an example;
Anjalai just got a major shock.She reaches Manjakani via the electronic communicator device a.k.a handphone
Anjalai :BABE!arggggghhhhh! CRISIS !!CRISIS !!
Manjakani cuts in
Manjakani :Hunny !CHILL!CHILL...chiiilllll
Anjalai :*takes a deep breath*phew..
Manjakani :Whats wrong ??
Anjalai :Your never gonna believe what just happen !
Manjakani :What what ??
Anjalai : Ah chai called me for a movie !
Manjakani : Huh ? Ah chai who ?
Anjalai :*takes a deep breath of disbelieve* OMG sayang..Ah chai Ramaraju,the cutest,HAWTEST,most adorable guy in the mamak shop that day !!
Manjakani :Get out !Serious shit ?? OMG!OMG!OMG
*both having moment of leisure by shouting simultaneously*
Manjakani :First things first.What are you wearing women ??
Anjalai :I cant decided ! That's the crisis all about !
Manjakani :I'll be there in 10 minutes.
Anjalai :Awwww...Thanks babe !Love yah !
Where else the xy chromosomes(male) are much sophisticated species where a few words churns out a million meaning.For example;
GeorgePandi's girlfriend cheated him.JerrySamy consoled him.
GeorgePandi : She's a bitch !
JerrySamy : Told you right..
GeorgePandi : Macha,you know how much i love her dei ?
JerrySamy : More than porn ?
GeorgePandi :*tearing* yesss....*SOBBING LOUD*
JerrySamy :It's okay macha.Let's get drunk.
Notice the length of the conversation?Yes.That's it.No matter what our problem is,getting drunk is the ONLY solution.
Friends=Sharing stationery+cheating in exam+mocking on a lecturers+Arguments
Emphasizing on arguments,the two sexes have their standard modus operandi of accomplishing that portion.
The xy species are rare to be found in controversy among each other.But if they are found,the following long list are the cause;
1.Girls
2.Female
3.chick
4.babe
5.perempuan
6.leng lui
7.sareke
We men always fight for noble cause;
1.You talk with my girl,YOU DIE !
2You look at my girl,YOU DIE !
3.You glance at my girl,YOU DIE !
4.You breathe my girls carbon dioxide,YOU DIE ! (seenu likes this)
But the xx species are much advanced because their approach in revenge are more tech savvy whereby internet applications such as facebook shout out,blogger are utilized.Their targets would be;
-sluts who steal their best friends boyfriends
-who steals their own boyfriend
-bitches who spread rumor about them
An argument is said to be cement between bricks.It strengthens the bond.But it should be in a healthy way where both individual tolerate each others ego and give in for the better.Learn the word sorry and imply it whenever you need to.Trust me,your social life will be a colorful one.
There is 2 things in life that are hard to find.A tasty Milo ice and A true friend.The second one inspires us.Shows us the path that should be taken.Encourages us during the darkest of time.A person who leads us to a better life unconsciously with expecting a single gratitude in return.
If you have one,appreciate them while your still breathing.Don't shed any croc tear when they aren't breathing.
Sembahyanglah sebelum anda disembahyangkan.
Nandri,vanakam.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Here In my life
Didnt spend much time with God.. was feeling one kind bout it... then was hearing hillsong.. the song HERE IN MY LIFE felt like such a situation song... so decided to post it up.. ^^
I have never walked on water
felt the waves beneath my feet but
at Your word Lord, I'll receive Your
faith to walk on oceans deep
and I remember how You found me
in the very same place
all my failings surely would have drowned me
still You made a way
You are my freedom
Jesus, You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
where would I be without
You here in my life
here in my life
You have said that all the heavens
sing for joy at one who finds the
way to freedom, truth of Jesus
bought from death into His life
and I remember how You saw me
through the eyes of Your grace
and though the cost was Your beloved for me
still You made a way
;) =) =p
hm.. as usual im totally out of track of my sleeping time.. =/ its 7 am now.. hahahaha!! 2 more days.. 1 more paper to go.. feeling very very VERY much relax.. not that the paper is tough.. but its supose to be.. but becoz of that "sumthing extra" the lecturer gave.. im very relaxed.. hahahahahahahaha!!!
hearing hillsong again.. just makes me feel soo close to God.. had 2 crazy but awesome nites with the gang.. yesterday.. sunday morning was the best ever! i, vani, ganz, mahes, prakash and kalai randomly stayed awake the whole day the previos nite! went to cc to play cs with the guys then mamak at mm1 till 4am... went over to the guys place.. then me and vani decided to hv some heart to heart girl talk outside the house as the guys proceeded to play Soldier Of Fortune with their laptops.. gonna miss vani!! and the rest of the biomed and biotech peeps!! they are all going for industrial training !! =( sad.. sigh... next sem is gonna abit lonesome without them.. but nvrtheless.. all is gewwwd!! hehehe!
oh well.. yes.. coming back to sunday morning was best ever! =p well it was great. coz v stayed awake the whole day.. then it was 6.45am when i and vani went in da hse only to find the guys fast asleep!! hahaha!! and they had futsal at 7.30am! the best part is actuly waking the guys up! should hv seen their irritated faces!
before heading to futsal.. went back to my room 1st.. washed up and headed to futsal with sasi and vani to be cheerleaders for the guys and was up for some tengga paal appom for breakfast after dat at premas!! weehee!!
oh boy.. seriusly its been ages since i had a proper breakfast.. judging from my sleeping time and the time i actuly wake uP! it was just great.. to just have a normal breakfast.. drinking hot milo.. it makes it even better when ur having it with the people that you love soo much in the world... your frens....... =)
anyways.. nyts at 7.21am!
hearing hillsong again.. just makes me feel soo close to God.. had 2 crazy but awesome nites with the gang.. yesterday.. sunday morning was the best ever! i, vani, ganz, mahes, prakash and kalai randomly stayed awake the whole day the previos nite! went to cc to play cs with the guys then mamak at mm1 till 4am... went over to the guys place.. then me and vani decided to hv some heart to heart girl talk outside the house as the guys proceeded to play Soldier Of Fortune with their laptops.. gonna miss vani!! and the rest of the biomed and biotech peeps!! they are all going for industrial training !! =( sad.. sigh... next sem is gonna abit lonesome without them.. but nvrtheless.. all is gewwwd!! hehehe!
oh well.. yes.. coming back to sunday morning was best ever! =p well it was great. coz v stayed awake the whole day.. then it was 6.45am when i and vani went in da hse only to find the guys fast asleep!! hahaha!! and they had futsal at 7.30am! the best part is actuly waking the guys up! should hv seen their irritated faces!
before heading to futsal.. went back to my room 1st.. washed up and headed to futsal with sasi and vani to be cheerleaders for the guys and was up for some tengga paal appom for breakfast after dat at premas!! weehee!!
oh boy.. seriusly its been ages since i had a proper breakfast.. judging from my sleeping time and the time i actuly wake uP! it was just great.. to just have a normal breakfast.. drinking hot milo.. it makes it even better when ur having it with the people that you love soo much in the world... your frens....... =)
anyways.. nyts at 7.21am!
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