honey bee^^

"honey bee"is a song by zee avi.. i dun reali hear indie songs.. but hers r soo nice to hear.. not sure wether bcoz she's also a malaysian.. perhaps its one of the factors.. hehee

Im reali into posting lyrics mood now huh?? sighs..im jus finding soo many songs which is soo beautiful and it reali relates to LIFE.. to my life atleast.. :)

I am a honey bee
Shown out from the colony
And they won’t let me in
So I left the hive
They took away all my stripes
And broke off both my wings
So I’ll find another tree
And make the wind my friend
I’ll just sing with the birds
They’ll tell me secrets off the world

But my other honey bee
Stuck where he doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I’ll come save you
Even if it means I’ll have to face the queen

So I’ll come prepared
My new friends say they would help me
Get my loved one back
They say it isn’t right
The bees have control of your mind
But I choose not to believe that
So we’ll meet in the darkness of the night
And I’ll promise I will be there on time
We’ll be guided by my new friends the butterflies
Bring us back to our own little hive

Oh my other honey bee
No longer stuck where he doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I have saved you
And now that you’re with me
We can make our own honey..


how much more metaphoric and personalised can a song be.. hmm.. :)

... ... realy my best fren???

I duno wat made me write dis title.. well actully i do.. i hv many many many doubts bout is the person i consider as my best fren..reali is my best fren???

wat is a best fren? hw does sumone bcum ur best fren? hw in a way she stands out from among the rest dat u consider her to b the BEST of frens?? i've always tot best frens are lyk sisters.. dey are der for each other thru thick and thin.. always b der to hear out each others problems.. give a shoulder to cry on.. bla ..bla..bla.. but who am i kidding..?? in other words..wat im tryin to say is.. hw did i choose my best fren???? was it bcoz i knew her all my life?? was it becoz we juz randomly bcame best frens?? why is it dat im soo inquisitive over the best frend i hv?? if u realise.. everything juz lies in a question mark.. and when comes down to it.. i juz realise dat the person i tot of as my best frend isnt realy my best fren.. coz shes jus busy bein a "perfect" frend to others.... when im juz blown off to the corner.. mayb not all the tym..but most of the tym..hm..

mayb sum say its jelousy.. but im soo over the jelousy part.. becoz.. v've been togather soo long.. i read her so well.. been der for her when she was upset.. been der for her throughout her regrets and whenever she meks d wrong choices in life.. been der for her to advise her thru thick and thin.. the biggest question comes is ... was she der for me...???

throughout dis one yer.. i've gotten to kno many frens.. sum were thruthful.. sum were nice.. sum were downright mean( i gif these ppl back in da face! ).. sum were useless.. sum were juz fake.. atleast dey were honest.. but.. hw many faces hv u shown me through dis one yer?? haiz..bein the idiotic me.. i juz kept quiet..

am i hurt..?? yes i am.. bcoz i dun even kno wether my frenship mean anything to u.. or watever i've been doin or hv done for u ever rings a bell??..or atleast an appreciation?? hv u ever come to my house to c me when v'r back in our humtown?? ow.. i remember...u came.. but it was nvr for me.. and u kno very well for wat.. hv u ever given me a call?? hv u ever treated me with a smile when im over at ur house..?? all were juz replaced wit ur snobbish character.. u nvr look at me in the eyes whenever im talkin.. imagine hw wud i feel when a tv or a laptop is more important den me?? and worst... 'sorry's onli came after it was asked for..

i kno v hv many difrences.. many.. not even one similarity.. physically and mentally.. perhaps dats the root to everything..

usually ...im not dis stupid to stick around for an unwanted frenship.. or to b frens with sumone who thinks she's so high and mighty.. i've been patient.. always accepting the things dat tek place .. forgiving even when the forgiveness wasnt ask for.. mayb is coz i've known her since v were kids.. i love her soo much not onli as a fren but also a sister.. bcoz her family is lyk a 2nd family to me. dey tek me everywhere as tho im part of their family.. but dis is wat happens.. ppl juz climb over my head.. i dono y im writing dis.. mayb its coz i've jz had enuf.. its reali upsetting..if my frenship is goin to be taken granted of..den y wanna cheat each other by faking to be best of frens..... ryt??

im not askin u to be d perfect fren to me..nor am i desperate for ur frenship..all im askin is atleast b a good fren is enough.. grow up..and humble urselft.. now is dat too much to ask?? the truth of the matter is.. i've learn to seek God thru thick and thin.. God is der to hear me out.. and God is der to gif me a shoulder to cry on.. JESUS became and is my BEST FRIEND :)

hosanna

feeling very spiritually down lately.. no mood to pray.. unable to feel His presence.. i kno its bad.. and need to get back on my feet!! the "no mood" thing also came to blogging.. having a pc with bad Internet connection reali suck..haiz.. nevertheless.. i've been hearing "hosanna" from hillsong quite often. it reminds me of how much i long for God.. to b with Him as He has been with me..and not praying.. i feel lyk an ungrateful scumbag.. feeling soo sad dat im not giving back to Him as how i shud..



Dear God..

heal me from my sins and unforgivingness.. heal me spritually and not let any outside force or any sort of worldly enpowerment to hover over me but only for ur grace, mercy, blessing, and Your truthfulness to guide me to thy full capacity and use me as thy instrument to spread thy mighty word oh Lord..


hear the song.. especaly the bridge part.. god its soo powerfull!!
it means alot to me.. hope it effects u the way it does for me..

HOSANNA
I see the king of glory

Coming on the clouds with fire

The whole earth shakes

The whole earth shakes


Yeeeah


I see his love and mercy

Washing over all our sin

The people sing

The people sing


[Chorus]

Hosanna

Hosanna

Hosanna in the highest x2


I see a generation

Rising up to take their place

With selfless faith

With selfless faith

I see a near revival

Stirring as we pray and seek

We're on our knees

We're on our knees



[Bridge]

Heal my heart and make it clean

Open up my eyes to the things unseen

Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours

Everything I am for your kingdoms cause

As I go from earth to Eternity........



[Chorus] x2

Hosanna in the highest

doin random surveys again...=_=

Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
`i sleep in da hall.. so.. open???

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
` noway!! hm..unless dey smell good.. kikiki

Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
`tucked in..!! wat if the boogey man touches my feet... :-/

Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
`do i look lyk dat desperate????

Do you like to use post-it notes?
`nah... hm.. wats post-it notes??

Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
`i usualy gif it away..

Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees
`i'll run for my lyf!!! dats wat i'll do! T_T

Do you have freckles?
`nope.. :)

Do you always smile for pictures?
` no.. i say cheeeeeseeee!! =D

What is your biggest pet peeve?
` smokers...

Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
` hehe.. sumtyms..

Have you ever peed in the woods?
` nvr..

What about pooped in the woods?
`stupid..

Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
`haha.. ders music playin on my mind.. so yea..

Do you chew your pens and pencils?
` sumtyms... :)

How many people have you slept with this week?
` w t f...............................

What size is your bed?
`i don hv a bed! T_T

What is your Song of the week?
`better than life (hillsong)

Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
`yea.. y not.. but plz dont wear if its not nice on u..

Do you still watch cartoons?
`hehe.. yea.. animes...

Whats your least favorite movie?
hm.. hm.. cnt think of any..~~

Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
` i'll dig a 6 feet deep hole and bury it bhind my backyard.. NOT!! ~

What do you drink with dinner?
`water la..

What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
`i lyk to eat juz chicken nuggets..

What is your favorite food?
`taufu sambal and dhal

What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
`mamma mia.. oh my god.. i dono y .. im juz addictd 2 it and ABBA songs!!!

Last person you kissed/kissed you?
` 1st kiss pun x da.. apa la...

Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
`nope.. i was in the red crescent!

Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
` if i had the perfect body i wud!! hold dat tot.. i aint anna nicole smith alryt!

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
`standard 3.. to a pen pal in sarawak.. she didnt write back... :_(

Can you change the oil on a car?
`no.. tomoro ny goin for the 6hours drivin khursus..

Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
` i havent gotten my driver's licence..

Ran out of gas?
` never experience dat..

Favorite kind of sandwich?
`tuna!!! yum yum..!

Best thing to eat for breakfast?
`tosai with anion chatni and chaiya..perfect...

What is your usual bedtime?
`2-4am..plus minus

Are you lazy?
` abit.. mayb a little bit more..

When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
` i was a mermaid.. :D

What is your Chinese astrological sign?
` hm............

How many languages can you speak?
` 5

Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
` eh.... womens weekly..

Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
` lincoln logs are cool..

Are you stubborn?
` ahem.. very..

Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
`i lyk letterman.. not dat i watch any of his lateshows and minus his scandolous affairs.. =s

Ever watch soap operas?
` ew!!!!!!! nver in a million yers!! its worst den watching tamil dramas!!

Afraid of heights?
`nope... i'd lyk to go bunjee one day..

Sing in the car?
`when im alone..

Dance in the shower?
`hehehehe....

Dance in the car?
`hehehehe...

Ever used a gun?
` yea.. in my dreams..

Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
` nvr ..lolz.. wishing i was mona lisa..

Do you think musicals are cheesy?
`nope.. deir pretty soothing

Is Christmas stressful?
` y wud dey b.. after all i get presents and ang paos.. hhaha

Ever eat a pierogi?
` hm..wats dat??

Favorite type of fruit pie?
`banana!!

Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
` a vetenarian

Do you believe in ghosts?
`nope.. i believe in JESUS CHRIST!

Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
` many many many tyms..

Take a vitamin daily?
` my mom forces me to tek em.. haiz..

Wear slippers?
`yeap!!

Wear a bath robe?
`nope!

What do you wear to bed?
` short shorts and big-T

First concert?
` nvr been to any..

Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
` tesco got la.. :p

Nike or Adidas?
`Adidas..

Ever take dance lessons?
`yea.. by myself.. hehe

Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
` perhaps a soldier/lecturer/engineer..

Can you curl your tongue?
`yeap.. i can show yer..

Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
`haha..yea.. when i got my results..

Regularly burn incense?
`do i luk lyk a buddhist??!!

Ever been in love?
`yea....

Who would you like to see in concert?
`probably a hillsong live concert or planet shakers!!

What was the last concert you saw?
`nvr been to any.. i kno.. my lyf is sad..

Hot tea or cold tea?
`hot tea

Tea or coffee?
`tea :)

Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
`yes

Are you patient?
`depends

DJ or band, at a wedding?
`wud reali love a dj

Ever won a contest?
`yea..sum scrap book design contest during secondary school. hehe

Ever have plastic surgery?
`NEVER!!! hm.... thinking of lipo.. u kno.. for my big arms..
mayb rhino for my big nose.. ahem..juz kidding..why waste the beauty God
gave u ryt??

Can you knit or crochet?
`im good in crocheting..:)

Do you want to get married?
` yea la.. with the right one..:)

If married, how long have you been married?
` lyk.. FOREVER!!

Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
`haha.. when i was a kid.. really spoilt... haha

Whats your favorite color?
`BLACK

Do you miss anyone right now?
`maybe.. :-/

i can make it through the rain^^

I got my repeat exam results a few days ago.. i did pretty well!! but wasnt so satisfied with my maths2 tho.. nevertheless.. i've officially completed my foundation in science!!! yay!!!!!!!!! im soo happpy on dat part.. my parents hv nvr been soo proud of me.. getting so many treats for the pass few days.. my mom bought me 2 set of punjabi suits, dad bought me heels, and i got 4 free 25% discount coupons to play at cosmoplay in timesquare from my bro-in-law(im mor then willing to bring anyone)!!hehe.. but honestly ..i gif all the glory back to God.. bcoz without Him i wudnt hv gone this far nor wud i have worked dis hard.. THANK YOU LORD!! >.<

tho im enjoyin the joy of success.. a few of my frens dint do soo well.. feelin reali down for them.. i onli pray dat dey wont gif up and continue to b strong and work hard!! when i cud do it by the grace of God so so can u! becoz God has promised us to make us the head and not the tail :)

"i can make it through the rain" by mariah carey has been ringing in my head for the pass few days.. i keep humming the song everywhere i go!! and i realise hw much the song depicts my struggles in life and hw much i hold on to dat little faith.. as little dat faith mayb to me.. its a big deal to God..haha..




u simply dedicate dis song to my frens and to those who endured/enduring many challenges and successes or failures.. hope this song inspires u ^^

enjoy the song.... :)





When you get caught in the rain with no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain without anyone
When you keep cryin out to be saved but nobody comes
And you feel so far away that you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's ok, won't you say



I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down, don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly and you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say



I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid
I hold tighter to my faith and I live one more day and I make it through the rain



And when the wind blows
And shadows grow close
Don't be afraid
There's nothing you can't face
And should they tell you, you'll never pull through



Don't hesitate, stand tall and say



I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own and I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make it through the rain
And I can make it through the rain and stand up once again
And I live one more day and I,
I can make it through the rain
Oh yes you can,


You're gonna make it through the rain......



:-)


PS:got to get ready for degree now... FINALY!

sunway lagoon` 09-10-09

had a good tym in sunway lagoon! altogather vanz,ganz, shabin, shalini, gaya3, nitya and myself!! d funniest thing happen which is no one knew shabin was gona make it.. and ganz wud hv been d onli guy coming..he was pretty worked up about it.. but.. i think he was probably hopin to b a playboy for one day.. kiki.. anyways.. went with shabin to meet ganz 1st in POPULAR in pyramid.. shabin was hiding bhind me to gif ganz a surprice.. but ended up ganz surpricing us by sneaking up bhind uS!!!! gosh... buta giler la! met up with the other and off to the lagOONs!!!! played both the wet and dry themeparks and had a blast on the slides and rides! one time ur lifted off the ground and another tym ur on the ground.. 100%% adrenaline rush! den got super wet in da rain.. was shivering lyk no ones business!! the good thing was.. since der was no sun so ders no sunburns!! yay!!!!! haleluyah amen!

worst part was.. i didnt kno v were up for a movie later on and i didnt bring long pants!! it was kinda odd walking around pyramid with short short ~~..felt reali bare... wonder hw d chinese do it =s .. v went la for one reali reali boring movie .. it was called "the private lives of pippa lee". it starred keanu reeves(he was cute as usual!!), blake lively, and julian moore.. judging by the cast.. obviosly u wud think its a good movie aite?! but no.. i onli hv one sentence to tell u 'do not watch it!!!!' . haha.. anyways.. was exposed to too much air conditioner during the movie.. had terrible leg cramps the nex day! :_( ..got over it by dipping my leg into hot water... (haaaa.. sooo nice....)

here are the pics btw..........!


`the group pic

`ganz and me^^

`this is funny.. nythia, yudhes and rambo???

` shal, me, nytz, gaya and vanz

`vanz,nytz,gaya,shabin,shal and me

`ganz and nytz

`..ermmmm... me..

`shalini!

`vanz and shalz

`ganz's chicken backsyd hair.. keke

`nitti and me..

` owkay.. dis is sooo retarded!!!~~

`shabin and ganz

` hehe..cute couple..














`hm.... mcm mother and daughter je..~

`nytia ..dead poser..

`... *sweat!!!

jazzy wazzy, bean and shawty(me) =p

okay.. i kno i sound lyk one big perasan kes when i call myself shawty.. for the record its suppose to b shortty la..~_~ these are all the pics me, jaz and shabin tuk on thursday! enjoy!




i kno.. its a cool ride.. isnt it a beauty.. *im melting!!!!





oopz.. bobo(the bear) .. slipt in accidently ..





` the deepavali fest..

reali beautiful kolum..

he's cool, he's sexy, he's small and he's blue.. its in infamous bobo!!!

sexy jaz and me..

jaz throwing d ball

kakaka.. went to the syd..

shabin- our mentor.. kononnya..!

owkaay.. honestly hv no idea wat the heaven am i doin?! perhaps im prayin to God for luck :P

jaz.. at this tym i guess she was sayin "watch and learn"= punch dialog of the day.. hehe

oh!! its me its me!!

sori.. my camera aint cyber shot..

shabin.. dead poser....haha

haha.. so mr beanie..

told u she was skinny....................

takin my aim..

its my lucky ball.. ^^

at pizza hut

jaz wollapin

the pizza..

shabz doin the opening ceremony of the

welcoming of

"hawaiian chicken supreme"

me and jazzy gal..

garlic bread and chicken soup^^

jazzy wazzy..

shabin... talkin as enthusiasticaly as ever..!!

~~~~~~~~~THE END~~~~~~~~