my blog.. with no updates for freaking 4months?! 

hahaha.. havent read anybody's blog either! what happened to my so called die hard interest.. 

dreams and hopes of writing..?

 all just relinquished in dust.. haha!

 just to drop by.. since im having the time..

 intresting how blogger hasnt changed much since the very beginning i start scribbling things around 

but here we have facebook with its new facelift called 

TIMELINE..

 lol much.

well.. a BIG hello.. again.. ;)

Angels

The holiest place that could ever be

All you can do is bow

Before the One who made heaven and earth

Before the Almighty God

For Him alone

Sing with the angels

Sing with the angels

Singing the Name of the Lord

Singing the Name of the Lord

For every soul, He gave it all

Given for all of mankind

Eternal life is His alone

Given to all who believe

In Him alone, in Him alone

not afraid..afraid

m not afraid of heights, 
m afraid of falling...
m not scared of te dark, 
m scared of wat's in it...
m not afraid 2 lov, 
m afraid of not being loved back...^_^..


-kethees sivam-->FB-

Unashamed

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokeness complete 

nothing much..^^

there i go again.. for the pass few days.. not only looking for blogs to read but i kept staring at my blog thinking what to write.. hehe..Finally Ellana updated her blog.. its almost like waiting for a new season of a tv series.. u just cant wait to know what gonna go on in Ellana blog next.. haha! it really is a good read all the time.. ;) i think so far.. ellana's and juan's blogs are the only ones i read..and the rest just stop updating along time ago!

Anyways.. the Asian Cultural Night is this coming saturday!!  i never imagined myself being part of ACS in my entire university life.. and here was i .. having the privilegde to design the ACS charity night banner!! that was really fun..this whole design thing started ever since ACS planned its carnival which is coming up in august!! and.. YES..acs this year is a charity night alright.. =D  not to mention i also helped with the ticket selling!  heh heh.. i kno its jUSt ticket selling ..big deal.. but then.. ticket selling can really be a real hastle.. seriusly.. we must really make sure that we PICH(is that the word?) well in order to sell the tickets.. phew.. its HARDWORK and sweat!

Btws.. guess wat.. little miss me who sweared not to wear saree ever again in her life after her sister's wedding decided to wear saree for acs..haha! i kno.. joke of the century.... well.. when i went back last weekend.. i told my mom to tie me the saree..just wanted to see how i felt and looked.. i didnt want the ghujerati style because it really makes me uncomfortable .. so my mom tied me the normal one.. which you can see on my fb dp.. it looks great right?? SS*

the thing is.. for the rest.. its like the last acs night for them.. vani, kavi, kalps,preet, ros, nit, lucky and so on..so all of them wanted to wear saree.. and it would be a bummer if i was the only who didnt wear .. and i was still sticking to wearing a punjabi suit until i saw myself in the saree..again.. ;))) ..

i tried tying the saree today.. to my dissapointment.. i forgot how to tie after gruelling my mom to teach me how to.. =.= .. looks like i need help .. and that i need to expose my  tummy to someone..~~
oh well.. *breaths*

anyways.. hope to have a great ACS night this year!! also not forgetting a quiz and a midterm next week..Sighs...

crazy thought

a crazy thought just came into my mine..

i wanna fall in love not tell anyone about it and elope ..

hahahaha!

yes.. crazy thought.. =p

Hellos and Goodbyes

Had Ps Nicky's farewell today.. Thank you Jesus that everything went smoothly just that the service continued on for more than 2 hours rather then the usual one and half hour..

Finalizing the video was just an awesome feeling.. slept at 5am after watching an episode of How I Met Your Mother..hehe.. Sometimes, u just have an awesome idea in your head and u soo badly wanna implement it u just wouldnt mind spending alot of time doing it..even if it means being tired and sleeping late then getting up with dark circles.. ;)

Honestly.. today was pretty sad.. i never felt such an attachment towards a person.. felt really sad.. really really sad.. Ps Nicky.. he was indeed as sharon said "An anchor of joy, love and encouragement". I cant help but feel why didnt i realise this sooner.. i've taken this person for granted and never appreciated it until now that he's leaving us.. 

But also.. I am aware that God has a greater plan for him.. Pursuing his theology masters would only take him further in doing God's works. So would love to bid farewell to him with a joyful heart. =)

One and half years just flew by so fast.. i even thought i would be serving this church till the end when i graduate. Always having this support system going..can't help but to wish there was more time..  I was pretty surpriced when i choked and tears were almost in my eyes when we were all singing "Kenangan Terindah". I could tell that Ps Nicky almost in tears as well.. it was a surprice after all!! hehe!!

Then again, while we all just fellowshipping and taking photoshooting.. oh yes.. i was enjoying myself with Ray's dslr.. its such an awesome camera! learnt more about dslr from Ray today.. and i cant believe i took some pretty awesome shots myself! Owwwkay.. coming back.. while we were all just fellowshipping and photoshooting.. "Oceans will part" starting playing on the deskstop.. all of a sudden i just had a reminences of the whole place.. i saw the keyboard, the drums, the guitar.. and i thought: " we are no longer gonna jam here anymore, spending time with each other and singing God's songs.. fellowshipping.. carecells every thursday.. the pizza night we had.. our very first amazing race.. worship leading..." 

We had a family here.. and i just hope we'll all stick together in Church Of Praise as well as a new family..=)

Well.. Pastor Nicky who loves Nike brand so much.. 

hope YOU always remember us

 with the Nike Arsenal T-shirt we all got you 

and a blessed farewell ..

dear friend and father figure..

My very existence is to prove you people wrong..

"updating"

Im trying to keep my blog updated as how i use to update it.. but it feel rather weird to do so.. because all of a sudden im like "How do u keep updating your blog again??" *scratcher head*. I absolutely feel like one of those who have a blog for fun and not actualy utilise it to the fullest! but i ofcourse i dont.. i want to update it..but...

Just like the other day.. i was typing something into my blog before ganesan and kesh came knocking on my window.. then i proceeded to talk to them.. we were talking  for like 20mins and then i sat down back to continue typing only to not remember what i wanted to talk about in the 1st.. so the post is left hanging.. to be honest i have a few other post which are like that too.. =/

Anyways.. as to keeping an "updated blog"..  My dear friend and Pastor Nicky Ling will be leaving us to pursue his Masters in Theology. He'll be going to very far away Singapore.. =_(  We were pretty bummed up about it when he suddenly dropped the "bomb" on us.. even worst news came when we knew the landlord of the building our church is renting wants to retake the building.. =(

Of course we didnt want pastor to leave.. of course we didnt want the church to close.. of course we prayed.. Apparently.. the MAN up there has a different plan for us.. and as time passed we learnt to accept it.. We will be attending Church Of Praise, Kampar starting July.. our new Home..

Kinda felt like an outsider when we or may when i first went.. but i guess.. we will get use to it.. and I so freaking love the pastor there.. Pastor Elijah.. to hear his powerful message..its truly mind blowing..!!

Moving on, we are going to have a farewell party for Pastor Nicky this coming Sunday. ^^ We are going to have a potluck.. we designed our own piece of scrap for his scrapbook.. and there will be a video presentation(im incharge if this =)... hope to do a mind blowing one ^^ )  and also we are going to perform two songs! "Count On Me" by Bruno darling.. and "Kenangan Terindah" by Samson.

I just hope he tears up! haha.. ow.. i just realised.. tomoro is Sunday! so its not this coming Sunday anymore..!! Okay got to chaw!! have a great idea for the video.. !!

i really feel like..

i really feel like going to a mountain top and scream my lungs out

i really feel like getting a good ol' cup of hot chocolate

i really feel like eating a really delicious well proportioned with  my favourite flavours of Buskin Robins ice cream

i really feel like falling in love

i really feel like holding someone's hand

i really feel like laughing my heart out

i really feel like crying

i really feel like having a nice long deep sleep

i really feel like studying now 

i really feel like hearing God's voice

i really feel like loving someone with all my heart

i really feel like doing something that makes me feel alive

i really feel like dancing

i really feel like singing

i really feel like a hypocrite

i really feel like travelling the world

i really feel like working

i really feel like being special

i really feel like being taller

i really feel like being prettier

honest.. i really feel like doing nothing.. =p

The girl has gone "kuku" so pardon her for her kuku-ness...hehe =p!

Photography ♥

Im totally in love with photography! 

still an amateur and i still take pictures with my E72.. hehe..

not self-taken pictures la.. but real photography..

waiting for my DSLR for 3months now..

its suppose to be my 21st birthday gift from my parents..

i didnt ask for anything else.. i sacrificed my 21st birthday party for it..

still waiting mum.dad..*anticipated face*

Anyways..these are some beautiful innovative photographies..

fish in a lightbulb

Refraction

im glad!

u kno what im just glad today^^
im glad im not fat neither am i thin.. atleast i dun hv anyone calling me anorexic or bulimic.. or
having to be weak or fainting every once in awhile.. but some how rather the guys just dig all of this..=p
im glad that i learn not to give up
im glad that im a strong willed person
im glad that im small but brave
im glad that im wise beyond my age.. atleast i dont make stupid decision that i regret
im glad that i learnt to recognise my God given talent... all glory back to Him ..
im glad to have such wonderful parents..
im glad to have a niece!
im glad to have great sisters.. though one of them is always a pain.. but sisters.. we fight ..but the next moment.. v'd throw ourselves infront of the bus for each other
im glad to have all this wonderful friends God has colored my life with..

im glad that i decided to go to  Church of Praise service today.

eventhough it would mean attending 2 services this week including sundays

on top of it all..

im glad that i kno this amazing person called Jesus Christ.. who has so magnificently light up my once upon a time dark life..

im glad that He light up my dimmed paths

im glad He always picks me up each time i fall ..

im glad He is always there to light the way and also show me the way when all else fails..

im glad learn to lean on Him in times of weakness..

im glad to know that all things are possible in His name

im glad that i dont have to scared of anything because He will give me wisdom to guard my heart and my mind

im glad to know that i can do all things through Him who gives me strength

im glad to know that He wouldnt abandon me in time when i need Him..

and yes Lord im making myself available for your works.. just SURRENDERING to You..

weighed down =)

Im trying to think of sumthing inspiring to write.. but i just cant think of any!! its weird.. i use to have so much to write but then.. now.. i just dont.. its like as if my mind and heart is blocked. 

to be honest.. the past few month have been really tough.. confusing.. unasuring.. and.. SCARY..

the last thing anybody would want is doubt in whatever course their doing.. because its something that is going to effect the rest of your life.. and I HAD THAT DOUBT.. i never thought i have to go through this road..  All of a sudden when i saw what i studied... it felt like if i was dyslexic.. i just couldnt understand.. everything was just jumbled up.. my brain felt constantly clogged as i couln't take in anymore.. stress and pressure settling in.. overly fatigue.. and that time i just wanted to quit and do something easier or im better at.. just leave engineering.. and take a chance at art and design.. sumthing that my brain could comprehend more compared to formula and complicated networks screwing around my brain..

I knew i needed to talk to someone.. but who? felt like God had abandoned me.. because i wasnt getting any assurance from Him.. it was upsetting.. 

back then.. even my parent didnt understand what i was going.. the amount of pressure i was in..i couldnt blame them because money  WAS an issue.. i go to class hoping i could grab on to something..something which i could understand.. but it was just getting tougher and tougher..

However.. deep down .. i know God wouldnt leave me..i found my assurance from a sister from church.. i received a message from her saying 

"You may not know where tomorows road may lead.. but hold on to Gods hands.. "

its such a beautiful verse.. 

and again.. from a christian lecturer.. whom also encouraged me to continue even if i had the interest in it.. and i caught myself thinking.. : "hey.. i didnt go through my foundation years.. working so hard in maths and physics without interest? i knew what i was coming into.. and i made the effort to do well.. ofcourse God's wisdom and understanding was also part of it.. its a testimony of a lifetime.. of how much God had helped me!"  Somehow rather.. i found the courage to continue.. and the lecturer was kind enough to offer me a prayer..

i manage to find my focus before finals.. but coursework marks of a few subjects were quite dissapoiting.. plus finals was really really tough.. and i thought ...this is it.. i have to change course before i suffer down this road.. 

but..as i prayed.. God showed me that i wasnt close to him and that was why i was having all of these fears and doubts.. i continued to pray.. whatever God's will for me.. i would accept it positively.. This time, my parents were soo understanding.. because they understood and they didnt want to see me suffering as well and i honestly felt the love and care they had for me which i selfishly thought it wasnt there.. with much hope they told me if i could just try out another one more semester..

Surprising.. my heart was at peace when i said "yes" .. its true i wasnt close to Him.. its almost like as if.. i prayed onli when i needed Him but then again.. i would let the pressure built on on me.. where was my faith which i used to proudly display..? where was my trust ..? where was my foundation layed on? 

i  refocused.. and i truely thank God for the people in my life.. the lecturer who helped me to sort out my subjects for the next a year and a half .. properly planned my subjects in the future.. i desire to finish it..! and also to conquer it..! God's way is slow but We are made overcomers.. we are weak but we are strong in Him.. we are poor but we are rich in Him.. and  "He will make us the head and not the tail" and because "I can do all things through Christ who strenghtens me.. " =)

Yes.. this was what i went through the pass few months.. just wanted to share..  i truely learnt to "Trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding.. and to acknowledge Him in all my ways for He will make my path straight" . Please keep me in prayer.. all you wonderful souls out there.. amen..

Ps: hope this was inpiring.. =p  ;-)

nowadays im doing a lot of things dat i never thought i could see myself doing few years back.. i believe its a good thing..just another side of me which i never knew existed i guess..

i think its just a moment at this ONE time .. where u just feel like letting yourself go and be free and just enjoy the moment of having 'no one can stop me' feeling .. let loose and just enjoy urself..

but.. also i think sometimes.. at some point in your life.. something just happens and you just wanna change. This, i feel is bad.. because it definately can cause you to travel down an unpleasant road.. in which sometimes you will just get lost in forever.. or some at some point you'll realise that.."hey wat the hell am i doin?" and decide to change your life for the better good..

Sometimes i can be such a perasan case.. hoping my life would be as if something that would turn out like in the movies.. apparently.. i think too much.. and 'my life would be as if something that would turn out like in the movies' aint happening.. and i say that with a joking face! =p

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WE are completely different people living different lives.. we think differently and i may understand you but you understanding me is going to be a difficult process.

Hence, being in a relationship is kinda phobic to me for some reason. The fear of never being able to find someone who could comprehend me or willing to put up with me or take care or understand the fragile sensitive person that I am or keep up with the depth of my thoughts and speech.

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JUST TRUST GOD YOU SAY??

=)

who am i?

Who am I? 
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I? 
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours. 

Who am I? 
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I? 
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours. 

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
Cause I am yours..
I am yours..




..::WHO am I? i know now..  =)

why?

why am i NOT those who can just go with the flow... and doesnt bother about what anybody say or do?


the truth is.. 
how much i dont bother..
the more bothered i become... 

=/

today my life begins^^

I've been working hard so long

Seems like pain has been my only friend

My fragile heart's been done so wrong

I wondered if I'd ever heal again

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same

All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

Leave the past behind me, today my life begins

A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin'

I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone

And I've learnt how to leave it where it is

And I see that I was wrong

For ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same

All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/b/bruno_mars/today_my_life_begins.html ]

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

Leave the past behind me, today my life begins

A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin

I know I can make it, today my life begins

Life's too short to have regrets

So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget

Only have one life to live

So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

Leave the past behind me, today my life begins

A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin

I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me

Leave the past behind me, today my life begins

A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin

I know I can make it, today my life begins

Today my life begins...

-BRUNO MARS-TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS

today is such a depressing day.. =(

Hey there.. its been quite some time since i wrote anything here.. or in my tumblr.. just got bored for awhile.. was kinda doing some real writing instead. hm.. yes today is a depressing day.. why?? well.. finals finally started... and it didnt start well.. i had tcp/ip internetworking finals today.. and it was hard.. i was preparing for it for a week.. and its kinda depressing to say that i didnt prepare well enough.. i thought i had it all covered but there i was.. looking at the 1st question blankly..wondering how in the world to answer it.. and when i discovered i could figure out the 1st question.. i panicked.

Somehow rather got myself togather.. and completed as much as i could as i was also running out of time.. and then another depressing thing happend. Well, kampar had a mini flood a few days ago.. as exciting as it was.. i found a kitten shivering and stuck inside an upside down rubbish bin.. decided to save it.. im a sucker for small, cute, furry animals.. and this was a kitten.. imagine the compassion i was feeling.. vanez, chris and i took it home, gave it a bath and fed it and prayed for it before letting it go again.  For the  next few days it was still roaming around my house.. making sound but i couldnt find it..so i bought a ikan bilis bun for it, broke it to pieces and left it outside the house.. hoping it would eat..

then today came, and i didnt hearing it meawing anymore.. i thought it had finally went away.. little did i know .. i would find it dead outside my house.. initially i thought it was sleeping .. but then i noticed the ants around it and knew it had died.

felt a huge burden in my heart.. it was really heartbreaking.. took me back to the times when i was small.. where i had saved this kitten and my grandmother would chase it away.. and one day i saw the same kitten died behind my house and blamed my grandma for its death and i called her the "cat murderer.

 as u can see.. its pretty depressing.. feel like God is testing my emotions or something..  just feel like as if just when i had start to pick up all the courage to move on with my course(long story../) then again i feel like im stuck in another ball of confusion.. and then to see this kitten die kinda added the oil into the fire.. why didnt He protect the kitten??? or was it my fault? i didnt take care of it enough.. ?? didnt i pray hard enough?? if only i had looked out for it. =(

Maybe for most.. its not a big deal.. but it is to me.. feeling really sad.. cant shake it off.. just thought of writing.. to let some of the burden go.. RIP dear kitty.. im sorry for not taking care of u well enough...... as much as ppl hope that there are heaven for dogs.. i hope there is a heaven for kittens as well....

she looked into the mirror..

she looked into the mirror

she saw a girl with a big forhead

she looked into the mirror..
she saw a girl with glasses hiding the dark circles under her eyes
she looked into the mirror..
she saw a girl whose trying to hide the pimple of her face.
she looked into the mirror..
she saw a whose eyes filled with loneliness..
she looked into the mirror..
she saw a girl who dare to dream big dream but unable to achieve them
she looked into the mirror
she saw a girl who is fearful of what is ahead of her
she looked into the mirror
she saw a girl's hands with gaps in between, wondering who will fill in those gaps
she looked into the mirror
she saw a girl with the most imperfect body with a little muffin top
she looked into the mirror
she saw a short girl who is so insecure with herself
she looked into the mirror
she saw a girl who wonders where her future may be..
she looked into the mirror
she saw a girl who still believes there is hope when she believes in the true living God. =)

-NiMrodKor3n-



ps: wrote this when i was pretty down with myself.. but with dat little faith.. it relieved me from my all my pain^^

You're all i want ..all i need.. You're everything..

Find me here.. speak to me..

I want to feel you, I need to hear you

You are the light that's leading me to the place

Where I find peace again

You are the strength that keeps me walking

You are the hope that keeps me trusting

You are the light to my soul

You are my purpose

You're everything 

And how can I stand here with you

And not be moved by you

Would you tell me how could it be any better than

this

You calm the storms and you give me rest

You hold me in your hands

You won't let me fall

You still my heart, and you take my breath away

Would you take me in take me deeper now

And how can I stand here with you 

And not be moved by you

Would you tell me how could it be any better than

this

And how can I stand here with you 

And not be moved by you

Would you tell me how could it be any better than

this

Cause you're all I want, 

You're all I need

You're everything... everything

You're all I want

You're all I need

You're everything... everything

You're all I want

You're all I need

You're everything... everything

You're all I want

You're all I need

Everything... everything

And how can I stand here with you 

And not be moved by you

Would you tell me how could it be any better than

this

And how can I stand here with you 

And not be moved by you

Would you tell me how could it be any better any

better than this

And how can I stand here with you 

And not be moved by you

Would you tell me how could it be any better than

this

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this

My chains are gone

♥

♥

♥

♥

♥

My chains are gone

I've been set free

My God, my Savior has ransomed me

And like a flood His mercy rains

Unending love,

Amazing grace

♥

♥

♥

♥

♥

sometimes i wonder why am i not like those girls who are just born beautiful...

jabbed by tumblr ♥

Vanezsha Voodoo asked: Shawty! Did someone jab you with this??? Hahaha! XD

yes people.. finally i have tumblr.. just thought today was a good day to sign up for tumblr. haha! i g2 say.. i was so LOST! dont know what and where is what. phew.. but yea.. got the hang of it eventually ;) .  for anyone who has tumblr add me up ya -->mytumblr

aku emo!! =p

lol..  i've been emoing the pass few days.. i kinda find myself not being able to write anything inspiring or worth reading.. and talk about a awefully.. lonely CNY..=(


1st. i did nothing!
2nd. didnt plan anything because i didnt think i had to.
3rd. had that one good thursday which i wished it was everyday
4th. didnt get to see my parents at all this one week! not once! =(
5th. bro in law got sick.. cudnt go out much =/
6th. my this sem's timetable is kinda screwed up
7th. the fact that im doing nothing is making me feel useless!
8th. lazyness strikes
9th  i killed a roach in my sleep (this is something.. =p)
10th my lonely departure at klsentral.. =_(


thus .. the cause to all my emo-ness.. and im being very very sensitive.. every little thing seem be a tear jerker to me.. i find myself telling my sad, lonely CNY stories to total strangers.. =/ its a little funny when i think about it.. hehe.. anyways.. will be leaving to kampar today.. with a heavy heart as usual.. even heavier this time since its didnt feel like a totally worthy holiday..not sure why.. but it seems kampar is no longer a place i look forward to going back to ..em.. 

Plain Jane

Probably one of the worst CNY hols.. bcause all i did was being at my sister's place and doing nothing.. =.= .. apart from going to midvalley and meeting up gaya, vani, and g and watching GreenHornet!!! it was  that one day which i wish was everyday.. haha.. shopped for a pencilbox at tropica life..^^ hehe.. and  speaking of GreenHornet.. it was freakin hilarious!!!!  i couldnt stop laughing the whole time..!! and for the 1st time i actually thought seth rogen looked hansome..=D

oh yes.. thy might be wondering why the "Plain Jane" title..? it was a reality show on MTV.. honestly i thought it was a very good show.. the show is about a plain jane joining the show because she wants to do thing that she nvr had a courage or confidence to do because she is a plain jane. Well.. it was the 1st time im watching it.. the episode i watched was about a plain jane going on a date with her best friend whom she had a crush on for 6 years since college..he was a hansome, charming, smart lad.. =)  i dont know why..but  i was really feeling this girl..

moving on.. i thought the show really showed a good way to build up the girl's confidence.. 1st-overcoming her fears in her case was snail.. showing her that is she can overcome her worst fears then asking her guy out on a date wouldnt be a big deal. =) , 2nd- how to get a guy's number while walking your dog , 3rd- burlesque! and 4th- a make over!!

the whole thing was soo sweet.. the guy was called to go on a blind date not knowing that it was his best friend he's going to meet.. and then she comes..  ;)  shocking.. but they move on with the date.. then the girl tells her feelings to her best friend of 6 years.. and turns out.. the guy had a crush on her too during college and still does but they just nvr told each other! haha!  wow..  i just felt the whole thing was so genuine.. sweet..a fairytale..

Well... the fact dat i was really feeling this girl was because.. partly i felt like i was a plain jane myself.. lack of confidence..terrified of being in a relationship.. and even if i did have a crush on someone..ut is not the right one.. plus i'd rather keep it to myself then drawing any attention to myself.. i may not look like it.. but i probably am a certified plain jane.. =p

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You with the sad eyes 

don't be discouraged 

oh I realize 

it's hard to take courage 

in a world full of people 

you can lose sight of it all 

and the darkness inside you 

can make you fell so small 

But I see your true colors 

shining through 

I see your true colors 

and that's why I love you 

so don't be afraid to let them show 

your true colors 

true colors are beautiful 

like a rainbow 

Show me a smile then 

don't be unhappy, can't remember 

when I last saw you laughing 

if this world makes you crazy 

and you've taken all you can bear 

you call me up 

because you know I'll be there 

And I'll see your true colors 

shining through 

I see your true colors 

and that's why I love you 

so don't be afraid to let them show 

your true colors 

true colors are beautiful 

like a rainbow 

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Absolutely got nothing to do with my previous.. just heard the song in one of the American Idol auditions. Just simply enjoy a beautiful song with beautiful lyrics.