11 painful things:
- -Bringing back the feeling you've learned to forget..
- -Reminiscing the good times..
- -Trying to hide what you really feel..
- -Loving someone who loves another..
- -Having a commitment with someone whom you know it wouldn't last..
- -Shielding your heart to love somebody..
- -Loving someone too much..
- -Right love at the wrong time..
- -Taking risk to fall in love again..
- -Accepting that it was never meant to be..
- -"What ifs" ..
i got2 say.. i do agree with it all.. sometimes i find it very hard to explain.. i guess.. LOVE is COMPLiCATED.. sighs..
Suddenly.. all of the above just reminded me of the one again.. yes i do keep reminiscing the good time.. yes i do sOMEtimes bring back the feeling that i learned to forget... its hurtful.. and cheerful at the same time all over again.. i just never get the way i feel sometimes.. how is it that its soo hard to forget the one u use to like? its not like im not over him.. i am... i hv come to accept things the way they are.. WE as friends.. so whats the problem?
haha.. the fact is nothing.. its funny how the face of the one u like keep showing up each time u c a couple walking across the street holding hands how u wish u were that person.. sometimes when u watch titanic.. how u wish u were kate winslet and HE is leornardo de caprio.. sometimes.. its valentines day. and u see alot of couple doing things for each other.. and how u wish u were one of those who are doing the same thing.. or maybe ur own special thing..!! when u sleep.. when u dream.. God.. why?! why?! why?!
It is frustrating.. its like as if its never ending.. unless u have found another..but is that really the solution?? at the same time..AM I "Accepting that it was never meant to be" ..? AM I "Shielding my heart to love somebody"..? or AM I 'Trying to hide what I really feel"..? sometimes i dunno what the heaven im sayin.. but it always made sense to me or to u~ somewhere or another.. do u'll get me? its just funny.. when u think back.. bout the times.. somehow u just feel dat ur still part of that world that u think u have left behind.. like HE is still yours.. HE belongs to u.. HE and YOU are gonna be just find.. its as if you've created this mental image.. a film in your mind.. but then.. reality hits u real hard.. then u are like "wat the h*** is wrong with me??!!" im sure he has alridi moved on and probably eye-ing on another girl alridi.. and... and.. i wonder i how would it actualy make me feel...... hm gosh..!!! its just imagination k.. like an aftermath .. nothing serius..nothing serius.. but sERIUSly is this normal??? feels weird.. i reali wish to know.. so that atleast i know im not alone in this.. =S
im in da middle of my finals.. i dunnno y.. its always been around these times where i actuly get the mood to blog.. 4am-5am.. haha.. feel tired.. sleepy.. cant wait for friday to be over.. then finally i can really rest..
morning everyone!
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